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A few months back, we had an idea to get together with a bunch of local bands and musicians and put out a compilation. The songs were written about the topic we deal with, and we asked bands to take it in whichever direction they see fit. We told them to be blatant or metaphoric, and to sign about triumph or tragedy. We spent a great deal of time recording and mixing these songs for the bands, and it is finally finished. It is available for order at our merch store.

Due to space limitations on the tangible CD, we weren’t able to include lyrics. But obviously, the lyrics are the main point, so we decided to post them here. They are below. Thank you so much to all of the bands who participated in this project.

1) JAMIE SIVRAIS – ALL BUT PARALYZED
I was all but paralyzed
I was all but six feet underground
I never thought this strain would end
Situation compromised
Left for dead and bleeding, beaten down
I shouted out “if you can hear me
I’ll take back my life
Even if it kills me
I’ll take back my life”
Now I’m singing

I found myself and found my way back home
Finally I’m standing on my own
Standing on my own
Standing on my own

Imagination terrorized
Finding out my throat can’t make a sound
I can barely maintain oxygen
Memories antagonized
By thoughts I can’t wrap my tongue around
Head full of doubt, jaded and weary

I’ll make it through tonight
Though panic fills me
I’ll make it through tonight
Then I will say
“I’ll take back my life
Even if it kills me
I’ll take back my life”

I found myself and found my way back home
Finally I’m standing on my own
Standing on my own
Standing on my own

I was made for so much more than wearing your regret
Now I’m set to clear the air so you settle your own debt
This hasn’t killed me yet

I found myself and found my way back home
Finally I’m standing on my own
I found myself and found my way back home
Finally I’m standing on my own

2) THE ROSE HILL – OFFENDER
His hands were cold as ice
Touching me.
His lips on my body
Stop touching me!
The sheets made into ropes holding me down
Hold a gun to my head
I’ll take my chances, I’ll take my chances
Sleeping in peace
Instead of this war raging inside of me
Instead of this war raging inside of me

Fighting for my life
it wont be the same
but I’m strong, I’m not alone
This won’t take over me
You won’t destroy me
I’m not alone!

He picked me up as fast as he put me down
I can’t help but feel used from the inside out
How can I stop this? This just isn’t right

This isn’t love
This isn’t love
Get it out of me!
Get it out of me!

Fighting for my life
it wont be the same
but I’m strong, I’m not alone
This won’t take over me
You won’t destroy me

I’m more than your mistake
You didn’t get the best of me
I’m more than your mistake
You didn’t get the best of me
There’s more to me!

3) DANIEL IN STEREO – WANDERING EYES
It seems to me
That I have been deceived
By the thoughts deep in my heart
It seems to me
That my eyes keep wanting more
Of this wretched, wretched poison

Oh wondering eyes
Have you found what you what you’re looking for?
Oh wondering eyes

So I will run away from all these ghosts
And drink this poison no more
So I can run away from all these ghosts
That haunt me
So I will run away from all these thoughts
And drink this poison no more
So I can run away from all these ghosts
That haunt me

Oh wondering eyes
Have you found what you what you’re looking for?
Oh wondering eyes

4) THE FEW, THE FALLEN – DESTROYER
After everything that I’ve done
You don’t seem to notice
I have nothing left to give
And I’m forever empty
You can blame yourself for turning me into what I am

I can’t blame myself for falling prey to what you did
Tell yourself you’re the victim
And I’ll remain the liar

You are the destroyer of everything you touch
You find pleasure in the pain you give
You create the storm in a flash of light
You let this blaze begin just to watch me burn

Every breath you take is wasted on the poison
That escapes from your lips
I’ll tear open the sky to show the world what you have done
I will expose the void inside of you

You were never worth my time
I’ll erase you from my mind
And I’ll rebuild all of me
You have nothing left to take
Yet you’re forever empty

I gave you everything
And I want it back
I gave you everything
And I’m taking it back
These voices inside my head are
Pushing me up to the edge

You are the destroyer of everything you touch
You find pleasure in the pain you give
You create the storm in a flash of light
You let this blaze begin just to watch me burn
But the tides have changed and the tables have turned
You will come to reap what you’ve sown and I’ll watch you burn

Destroy the destroyer

5) DAVID LESSING AND THE GREAT XCHANGE – LOVE IS HERE
Hope, where did you go?
It’s been so long
Grace, my dearest friend
I need you now
But love, it paid the price, it saved my life
It won it all

Now hope is here
And grace is found
Love has come
And chains are falling to the ground
Let faith arise
And mercy flow
Love is here and love is now

Love, it paid the price
It saved the life, of everyone

6) ALL MY FRIENDS ARE DEAD – INNOCENTS
You think you ruined me!

I want to make it clear
That I won’t forget your face
That you wont get away with all you taken from my life
This is not what you intended
You thought you would crush me!
You created a monster
And this is burning inside of me!

Don’t try and run
Now I have you where I want you
I’ve been locked away for too long
Trying to solve all of this
It all went wrong
I don’t know anymore
Feeling this doubt
I’m not worth anything
Just nothing
You know you mean everything to me

This is not something I can say easily
But honestly I have to face my fear
I won’t be a coward
No I won’t be afraid anymore more
They won’t run from fear
Gather the voices
They won’t run from fear
They won’t be silenced
Coward!
They won’t be silenced!
Coward!
They won’t be silenced!

Did you think we wouldn’t find you?
Did you really think you could hide?
Now we see your face
You know you have no hold on us!

We won’t run from fear
Gather our voices
We won’t run from fear
Gather our voices
We won’t be silenced!

Don’t be swallowed by fear
Know that you are loved.
Know that you can always overcome.
You are never alone
We won’t be silenced!
Someone is always ready to hear you
You don’t have to face this alone
I will never turn my back on you
I don’t want to see you cave in
We won’t be silenced!
So always remember we are here
We are forever innocent
We are forever innocent

7) JOEBIN – INNOCENCE AND PRIDE
Defaced at such a young age
And told not to talk about it
Disgraced by some inhuman race
Leaving my eyes so dimly lit

I will face the fact
There’s nothing I can do
I’m tired of cowering from your sins
These aren’t my monsters within

These demons that you created
Left my heart heavy and conscience jaded
Mistaking myself for the garbage at fault
It was my innocence under assault

Left with, a life time of nightmares
Here I sit, waiting for my mind to clear
Innocence and pride are supposed to be free
What gave you the right to take that from me?

I will face the fact
There’s nothing I can do
I’m tired of cowering from your sins
These aren’t my monsters within

These demons that you created
Left my heart heavy and conscience jaded
Mistaking myself for the garbage at fault
It was my innocence under assault

I feel so dirty for something I didn’t do
I scrub my skin but the water can’t wash the stains from you

I will face the fact
There’s nothing I can do
I’m tired of cowering from your sins
These aren’t my monsters within

These demons that you created
Left my heart heavy and conscience jaded
Mistaking myself for the garbage at fault
It was my innocence under assault

8) PERSPECTIVES – 2
This is eating me alive
Consuming all of my insides
I can’t see what’s left of my life
Because the sins of another have left me blinded
I’m surrounded by daunting memories

I’m tied to this bed
I’m tired, I’m tired
Incentive is dead
Desire retired
I can’t go on living with this on my mind
It’s haunting me
It’s haunting me

You discarded my identity
And in turn you made me redefine my personality
You discarded my identity
And in turn you made me redefine my personality

I’m looking for an answer to this mess because
There is a hole in my chest where my heart once was
I’m looking for an answer to this mess because
There is a hole in my chest

I hope you’re living with this
I hope this tears you apart
I hope you’re living with this
It’s haunting me
It’s haunting me

This is eating me alive
Consuming all of my insides
I can’t see what’s left of my life
Because the sins of another have left me blinded
I’m surrounded by daunting memories

9) BENEATH THE DESTRUCTION – TO SMASH A PREDATOR
The face in the mirror wants to break you down
Wondering how it all went so wrong
How did we get here and what gave them the right
To sacrifice your youth on the alter of abuse?
Your past does not define you
Their crimes can not confine you
Through the darkness the light will find you to remind you
There’s freedom in forgiveness
There’s triumph in overcoming
There’s victory in the cross
For the lost and forsaken

I once saw a flower in bloom
Then someone came and snatched the flower from fertile ground
And one by one began to pluck the petals
Til there was nothing left but a bud
Pain is not a distant memory for this flower
But a constant state of being

Pain is not a distant memory
But a constant state of being
A puddle forms at the feet
Of the bravest of souls that this world has ever seen
Fighting through the tears

So dry your eyes, my child
And leave your tattered past behind
The crimes against you will not define you
Or who you will be
They took your innocence
You had no control
You paid the price and have nothing to show
What if I could tell you the fill to your void
Be redeemed because Christ is love

And let the thieves of innocence know
That we are not weak
And let the thieves of innocence know
We are not weak
We are not weak
Let them know that we are not
Let them know that we are not weak

The crimes against you will not define you
So lay your burdens at the foot of his throne
The crimes against you will not define you
So lay your burdens at his feet
The crimes against you will not define you
So lay your burdens at his feet

10) KYLA MAINOUS – BRUISE
I’ve been trying to get rid of all these nightmares
Been losing sleep for weeks
Caught up in the fear I’ve found
You took everything I thought I could hold onto
You didn’t think of me
You didn’t think of anything but you

And now I’m bound and bruised
Scarred and left confused
Growing colder here
Lying on the bathroom floor
I could’nt get away
Now there’s nothing left to say
I can forgive but I won’t forget

You stole a part of me that wasn’t welcome to you
You tore my soul into a little pieces
I’ll find a way to hope again
I’ll find a way to trust again
But you, oh you will never bruise me again

I felt my spirit burn down into a spark
Where there once was a fire
Now just a flicker in the dark
I never thought that I would be here in this hell
But look at what I’m left with
Look at where I fell

And now I’ve come unglued
Scarred and left confused
Growing colder here
Lying on the bathroom floor
I might be weaker now
But I’ll grow strong somehow
I can forgive but I won’t forget

You stole a part of me that wasn’t welcome to you
You tore my soul into little pieces
I’ll find a way to hope again
I’ll find a way to trust again
But you, oh you will never bruise me again

There will be love again
There will be healing
And I’ll rise above the damage that you’ve caused
There will be morning
There will be something
That saves me from myself

You stole a part of me that wasn’t welcome to you
You tore my soul into little pieces
I’ll find a way to hope again
I’ll find a way to trust again
I’ll find a way to love again
But you, oh you will never bruise me again

11) FROM DREAMS AWAKENED – NEVER BECOME SOMEDAY
Make fear a stranger
As the pain fades away
Dream of what may be
When never becomes someday
You’ve been crying for so long
Tears got in the way
It’s your tomorrow if you fight for today
Fight for today

The light has faded away
A light that once lit your eyes
A smile that you wish to share
Now hides behind a disguise

Make fear a stranger
As the pain fades away
Dream of what may be
When never becomes someday
You’ve been crying for so long
Tears got in the way
It’s your tomorrow
Fight for today

No face, just echoes of a voice
Burned forever in your mind

Broken down and beaten
Tired of feeling like a victim
Broken down and beaten
Tired of feeling like a victim
Want to close your eyes
Come out from the shadows
Feel the sunlight on your face

Make fear a stranger
As the pain fades away
Dream of what may be
When never becomes someday
You’ve been crying for so long
Tears got in the way
If you could only see
If you could just believe
That it’s your tomorrow
Fight for today
Fight for today

There’s no room to be a victim
When inner strength is embraced

12) I AM SHAKEN – YOU JUST GOT WINKLEVOSSED

I don’t want to be covered up in the sheets
I don’t want to see the morning light on my face
I don’t want to be me

You would be sick enough to chase me
I ran right into your worthless arms
God, I thought we were okay

Is there any rest for these broken hearts that were lost?
They let down their guard
We are all falling apart

Oh dear God
Would you believe me
If I said
That this was the beginning?

You just said the prettiest things
Nothing of consequence
You gave us nothing but made up beliefs
We’re all so weak

You would be sick enough to chase me
I ran right into your worthless arms
God, I thought we were okay

Is there any rest for these broken hearts that were lost?
They let down their guard
We are all falling apart

When I fall down
When I fall down

We all fall down again
We give all
We all fall down again
We give all

You wanted something beautiful
Here are the pieces of my heart

13) NORTHLAND NOISE – AIRING OUR DISSENT
There’s nothing left for the in between
It’s swallowed up by the extreme
I don’t care to wonder why
My only question is
Are you satisfied?

In the heart of every heart of every child
There’s a gem that shines as pure as snow
But for every bank there is a heist
For every Ark there’s a Shiloh

So when you’ve stolen innocence
Prepare for a life sentence
Of ringing in your ear
Thanks to the voice of the innocent
Piercing the silence
Airing the dissent

In the mind of every bystander
Live senses tuned to catch the scent
Of trust broken of forgiveness
Being stretched to it’s bloody limits

So when you’ve stolen innocence
Prepare for a life sentence
Of ringing in your ear
Thanks to the voice of the innocent
Piercing the silence
Airing the dissent

The victims have borne the guilt
For far too long
It’s time to send it back
To where it belongs

So when you’ve stolen innocence
Prepare for a life sentence
Of ringing in your ear
Thanks to the voice of the innocent
Piercing the silence
Airing the dissent

14) THE SWEET ADDICTION – MAD MAN
You say “she doesn’t remember”
You’ve got a lot of nerve in you
You say “she’s over it forget her”
Shame, shame on you
I hope you know you’re a mad man

Sometimes it takes a fall
To let you know how tall you can really stand
And sometimes it takes us all
To be left holding an angel’s hand.

You’ve been this poor excuse of a man
Since 1998
Who ever thought that this beautiful world
Would be such a quiet place?

She still sleeps with the lights on
Cause she’s scared if the light’s gone
And just like every other teenage girl
She’s just looking for her place in this world,
I hope you know you’re a mad man

Sometimes it takes a fall
To let you know how tall you can really stand
And sometimes it takes us all
To be left holding an angel’s hand

And as for me
I don’t know what she sees
I see she’s a beautiful human being
And if the light’s left on
The only thing wrong that I see
Is that she’s just like me

Because I still sleep with my light on
Because I’m scared when the lights gone
And just like every other teenage boy
I’m just looking for a life to enjoy

And we cry
But you’ll never, ever see us do it
And we love
But we are so scared to use it
And we sing
Because we know that we got through it
And we’ll shout
Because the only thing left to do is
Hope you know you’re a mad man
Hope you know you’re a mad man

15) I AM THE MESSENGER – OPERATION: OH YEAH?
My hands made you this pretty necklace
It’s sewn with beads and memories
Of the stockholm syndrome we’ve attached to
My mind’s passed through murderous sequences
Clock’s stalled on the darkest of hours
I’ve got my arm slit from the recent events
I’ve got to let this go before it’s my demise

I fell in love with the middle of nowhere
But I wasn’t alone
No, there were fires where frail hearts conspired
My feet were worn thin from the walks with our hands locked

My blood is boiling in my veins but I can’t feel a pulse
Instead it’s rusting out my insides
I’m compulsively repulsed
My head is fastened to my palms

My youth was devoured by the teeth of a coward
My youth was devoured by the teeth of a coward

Help me, God
I’m falling apart
Help me, God
Help me, God
Swing with me
This doesn’t change a thing
Oh help me, God
Swing with me
This doesn’t change a thing
Oh help me, God
Help me, God
Help me, God

16) JAMIE SIVRAIS – LISTENING
I find if I remain absolutely quiet
It’s as if I disappear
Transparency sustained, I am absent, I am silent
I swear to God I’m not even here
They tell me I should pray
They say that I’ll find hope in God’s word
But everything’s the same
And every prayer I prayed made no difference
They all went unheard

I’ve got my tongue armed with all the right words to say to you
But my lungs just aren’t capable of spitting out oxygen
So don’t bother listening

Secrets collecting inside my brain
And I can’t hide, I can’t find escape
With regrets suspecting that I hold the blame
In my mind I’m consumed by a coward’s mistakes
My face is no more than a stranger’s reflection
I no longer recognize
Disgraced by assumptions and distorted perceptions
I’m just as much dead as alive

I’ve got my tongue armed with all the right words to say to you
But my lungs just aren’t capable of spitting out oxygen
So don’t bother listening

My life is my alibi and I’m slowly learning
That maybe I’ve not thought this through
So please tell me why this life sentence I’m serving
Has been handed to me and not you?

I’ve got my tongue armed with all the right words to say to you
I’ve got my tongue armed with all the right words to say to you
Turns out my lungs are capable of spitting out oxygen
Declaring my innocence

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