Why is at times when I’m alone that I sit and re question everything that has happened to me ?
Like if there is any possibility of me being able to change the present for what it really is.
Noticing that my surroundings takes a big place in my problem!!
I went from going to jail to going to rehab. And let me just say being around people who understand the struggle of being a drug addict or an alcoholic, an just being able to open up about the obstacles you have or that you are currently facing. No one will ever understand your situation until they have walked in your shoes or experienced something similar.
At this point I know I’m standing in a spot light surrounded by thousands of people telling me “I told you that you couldn’t do it” My heart shatters knowing I have taken the biggest FAIL In my short 23 years!
The biggest disappointment I face is having to look my mom in the eyes and tell her I have yet to relapse.
I know I couldn’t have accomplished what I have if It wasn’t for her!
I know I have let her down, this whole I have dug my self in is way to deep but I will not give uP!!!
As scared as I am to be back into jail I must not give up to have my freedom ND help.