So a couple days ago I posted my story titled “My Story;” I have some updates. Not such a good one but I’m going to be okay thanks to the support I’ve gotten for you guys.
Today I had to make the hardest decision in my life….. I either had to drop charges or sit and listen why the DA wouldn’t pick up the case. I chose to drop the case. Not only because I was already told by my detective that the case probably wasn’t going any further because of the information HE had given him, but because my mental state was on the line. Every time I got a phone call I’d get jumpy and anxious thinking it was HIM trying to get ahold of me or police with information I just couldn’t handle the stress. Not only that having to testify against him and see him again in court would trigger me on so many levels.
I chose myself this time. I know he knows he got caught he lied his way out of it like he always did and always will. He might’ve won that, but he didn’t win me. I won. I won this I survive sexual assault. I will not let this define me and I will move forward from this and I will fight for anyone that’s been in my shoes. Till I breath my very last breath I will be here for any of you that need me.
Through this journey I’ve learned a lot about myself. Not only do I half self love but self respect and not matter what NO will always me no. I also learned my true calling. I’ve always wanted to be a music producer but throughout this I want to help those like myself and a lot of you guys. I’m not sure if I want to be a family advocate or therapist but I now what my true calling is, and the ironic thing is I’m happy.
So from the bottom of my heart I truly thank you to the many that have reached out to me. It truly means a lot it really truly does