To him

How could you?
All I wanted was to love you, guard you, protect you, heal you.

Why?
Why did you hurt me like that? Why couldn’t you have noticed the way I groaned in pain, and not pleasure? Why were you rough with me? Why were you getting angry and impatient with me? Why did it have to be me? Why did you leave me there, bruised, torn, disgusted..?

The girl I once was, the cheerful, happy, go-lucky girl, died that day.


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15 comments

  1. handelsjuc99 Volunteer

    Hello Jamie Marie,
    I am so sorry you went through this. You didn’t deserve what happened to you and what happened wasn’t your fault. I know it might seem like it’s impossible to feel happy and joyful again, but you deserve to be happy and you can come back from this. You are already so strong for trusting us with your story and by sharing your story, you inspire others to do the same. We are on your side and if you need any more support, we’re here for you.

  2. blashea Volunteer

    Hi, I am so sorry that you had to go through that. I know it may seem impossible to get back to where you once were, but I promise things will get better. You will eventually be able to get back to that girl. She isn’t gone forever. Please don’t give up hope/fighting.

  3. Hannah

    Hi Jamie,
    I’m sorry this all happened to you. You didn’t deserve any of it. You’re so strong and you are not alone in this. Sharing your story and feelings shows that you want to be that cheerful girl again. I believe you can do it and so does everyone else here. Stay strong.

  4. music2799 Day Captain

    Hi Jamie,
    Thank you for sharing your writing with us. I’m so sorry this happened to you. You are so strong, and you’re surviving. You’re sharing your story with us, and we feel happy and honored to support you. You can become that cheerful girl again. I believe in you, and we’re here for you.

  5. Ash Volunteer

    Hi there. I am so sorry for what happened to you. Please know you are not alone. You are brave for sharing your story and we are here for you.

  6. Jacqui

    Hi Jamie Marie,
    I understand those feelings.
    You are so strong.
    thank you for writing to us.

  7. CarmenR Volunteer

    Hi there Jamie Marie,

    I am so incredibly sorry for all that you have been through and had to experience. You didn’t deserve it, and you are not at fault for the actions of others. I hope you know how strong you are, and that we are here to support you. Thank you for sharing such a well written post with us. Stay strong, and remember we are here for you.

    Carmen

  8. Turnschaosintoart Day Captain

    Jamie Marie,
    Very well written, writing is a great way to help heal. I appreciate you being brave enough to share your work with us. Keep writing. Thinking of you and wishing you the best
    Kristin

  9. Kristen Eby

    Jamie Marie,

    Thank you for sharing this with us. I can see a lot of my own pain in your writing, and it helps me feel a little less alone. I hope sharing it here helps you feel the same; we’re always here for you.

    Kristen

  10. Erin O'Callaghan Day Captain

    I am so sorry for the pain that you have been through. You don’t deserve this, and this wasn’t your fault. Is there anything else we can do for you to help you further? Let us know-and keep coming back to share more when you need.

    Erin

  11. elisabettap

    Dear Jamie Marie,
    This is so beautifully written. Thank you for sharing. Continue to stay strong and the girl you once were can return again.
    -Elisabetta

  12. Kailey2298 Volunteer

    Hi Jamie Marie,
    I can relate to this poem so much it’s so powerful. I know it feels like that girl is dead but she’s not, You can be that cheerful happy girl again. You are so strong and we are here for you.
    Kailey

  13. learningcommunityladies Day Captain

    Hi Jamie Marie,
    You are so strong for writing this. Continue to be strong and you can survive anything. We are here with you.

  14. Bluebell13 Volunteer

    Sending you love and strength Jamie<3
    Roxie

  15. Alyssa Day Captain

    Hi Jamie Marie,
    I love the meaning behind your poem. Those are all questions I ask myself too. As long as you continue to survive and live on he didn’t win. You can become the cheery woman you once were. I believe in you. Continue to stay strong.
    -Alyssa