It’s been awhile, my mom just had surgery for her cancer, in the meantime people have blasted me for having what happened to me, telling me cause I didn’t fight or run that I must have wanted it.
They tell me that cause of my actions I’m evil, and wrong, and that’s why all the bad things have happened to me.
My family wants nothing to do with me, cause I’m so evil.
I guess I need reminders that my action said I was scared, I was terrified, I thought I was going to die.
I’m still hanging on, sometimes I just want to just crawl up and cry, how could people who love you ever think this about you, I don’t get it.
I had another bout with CVS, a vomiting syndrome, and I wonder why do I have to suffer from shame, and sicknesses the way I do.
I guess sometimes I need to take some time for myself, please know that I care and love all those here, who are going through, or supporting, and believe in us.
Thank you so much, tell me though, do other’s go through and feel like I do.