If you’ve read my stories on here, then you know that I’ve been through some things. I wanna talk about what happened to me in the summer of 2018. I was 21 at the time and had just met my deceased fiancé. He wanted to have sex with me on our second date. I absolutely did not want to because he was bigger than average and I was afraid. I agreed to blow him but that didn’t work for him. He gave me some pills to calm down, and he had sex with me anyway. This is a man who later on raped me twice, assaulted me twice, and kidnapped me. Even though he’s done awful things to me, I still don’t know if our first time was consensual or a sexual assault. I’ve been sexually assaulted before by my 2 friends. (I was too drunk to give consent.) But I just have a hard time coming to terms with this possible assault. What do you guys think? Thoughts would be appreciated.