I’m 19 years old, the case started a few months shy of my turning 16. The abuse happened when I was a little girl, somewhere in between 2 and 8. The trial was set for August 5th but cancelled and nobody can give me a good answer as to why. I’m so sick of it, sometimes I just want to call the whole thing off, but I’ve worked too hard to give up now. Meanwhile I’m coming to terms with the fact that I’m more than likely bipolar or have BPD. I don’t know because I’ve been putting off the diagnosis for over a year now, I don’t know how it could effect the trial or if they could use it against me, and if they can, wouldn’t it be better to just give up on justice for my younger self than to have suck a big piece of me used against me ? I feel so stuck and don’t know what to do anymore.