Relatively positive update

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Hello everyone, just thought I would give you guys an update on my life.

Last Tuesday was probably one of the worst workdays I’ve ever had.  I had to help clean up a co-worker’s mess and he barely contributed, several customers got mad that we didn’t sell anything and yelled at me as if I’m trying to sabotage them, and a blackout occurred and we weren’t allowed to close the store and go home early.  I was so angry that I ended up lashing out at almost everyone around me.  It’s a miracle that I’m still friends with some of my co-workers.  Thankfully, the co-workers that I yelled and cussed at forgave me.

The past few weeks, including Tuesday, have been rough.  But thankfully, Wednesday and yesterday have been better.  I actually called out of work Wednesday and rested at home, which helped a lot.  Yesterday was a better day at work, and today my paycheck was pretty big.  I also got a raise at work which will help a lot.

I’m continuing to work on my podcast, which has been very helpful for my mental health since I’m spending more time with friends and talking about what I love.  I also recently bought Christmas gifts for my family very early and I hope that they’ll like them.

Today I am doing well.  Hopefully the next few days will be good as well.

Join the Conversation


  1. zelda Day Captain

    Hey, Colton! I’m so glad you’re doing better! Work sucks but it feels like Heaven when the check is big. What’s your podcast about? Keep working on it. What helps my depression is cooking and baking. I feel accomplished at the end, but the good food is what’s most important. 😉 Have a Happy Thanksgiving, and keep on pushing on.

  2. dzreid Volunteer

    Hi Colton95,
    Thanks for providing us an update. I think with so much going on in today’s society, the stressors of everything can get to the best of us all. It sounds like you had a difficult day or so, but then others days seemed good. I think when times are stressful, everyone at some point reaches a breaking point. If that means calling in to give ourselves a break & rest then I believe once in awhile it’s ok to do so. I’m glad you got a raise, I bet that made you feel somewhat better! Your work has paid off & even though you had a bad day & took it out on coworkers, they still are able to see good in you! I hope you continue to find a happy place when the stressors become too great!

  3. yailinrenteria Volunteer

    Hey colton95,
    Hope you are doing well. Thanks for updating us. It is always nice to hear from you. Do not be so hard on yourself, sometimes things happen that are out of your control. Working can be stressful on its own and customers can be some of the most disrespectful people, but do not take it personally. I currently work in a restaurant and can understand where your frustration comes from. I am happy you were able to keep your friendships with your coworkers. Although Tuesday was not the best I am glad that Wednesday and Thursday were better for you. It okay to call off once in a while to take some time for yourself. You work hard and deserve that break. I am extremely happy you received a raise; it is always nice to receive a bigger paycheck. I am glad working on the podcast has helped your mental health. I am wishing nothing but the best.
    Take care,

  4. almax Volunteer

    Hi colton95,
    I’m so glad you are having some good days and even called off to rest. Self-care is so important and very needed at times. I’m sorry you had some rough workdays, but in it of that situation I am also glad your coworkers forgave you for you and that you also got a raise! I am sure everyone will like your gifts, and appreciate the gesture itself so much. Good luck with your podcast!! Wish you great days ahead.

  5. brookeallnutt Volunteer

    Hi colton95,

    I’m sorry to hear that you had a rough past few weeks, but I’m glad that things have been getting better. Rest is always nice, and it sounds like it was much deserved! Also congrats on your raise. The podcast sounds like a lot of fun, and I’m glad that it’s been helpful for your mental health. Wishing you the best, and feel free to come back anytime! It’s great hearing from you.

  6. Elvia29 Volunteer

    Hi colton95,
    Thank you for the update. I am glad you came back. I am sorry to hear last Tuesday was one of the worst workdays for you. Work can be really frustrating at some point. I am glad to hear your co-worker forgave you. I am happy to hear that the following days at work were better. Congratulations on your raise. That is great you are working on your podcast that helps with your mental health. I am sure your family is going to like their gifts. I hope everything continues going great and hope to hear from you again.
    Take care,

  7. jcas120 Volunteer

    Hello Colton,

    I’m sorry to hear about that rough time at work. Working retail right now during the pandemic is already stressful enough, I hope there aren’t any more of your co-workers messes that you need to clean up. It’s great to hear that you took a self care day! It’s also great to see that your still working on your podcast. That sounds like a lot of fun. Great to hear the positive update and that things are going well!

  8. AlisonDKaufman

    Hello Colton95

    Wow impressive on the purchase of the Christmas gifts, I have not even begun to wrap my brain around the fact it is a few weeks away – way to go. Also, I am truly sorry you had a rough day at work it sounds like you really stepped up as a leader to take control of a bad situation but I’m sorry it caused you stress. I applaud you for recognizing your need to take a Mental Health day on Wednesday to focus on you, that is very important.

    Also, I couldn’t agree with you more. Spending time with friends and talking is some of the BEST therapy in the world! I hope you continue working on your podcast and continue to share with us.

    Continue your self-care!

  9. ZJC9753 Volunteer

    Hi colton95,

    Thank you so much for giving us an update! It is always nice to hear from you. I am so sorry to hear about your day on Tuesday, I know you handled it the best that you can, I’ve been there in a stressful work environment and it is absolutely awful. We have all had moments where we have lashed out, I am happy your coworkers understood. It sounds like you were having a rough week overall but you did the right thing by calling in to work and resting, I am very proud of you for that! It can be hard to put your well being first and it takes a lot of strength to start doing that, good job! I am glad to hear that your podcast is going well and helping with your mental health and keeping you connected to your loved ones. It sounds like you are doing a lot of work to be doing well which again takes a lot of strength. I am sure your family will love their Christmas gifts! I am glad you were doing well yesterday and I hope that it continues to be that way 🙂 Please feel free to come back and give us an update whenever you would like!

  10. alexiswilliams


    I am sorry that you had to go through this. I am really glad that the podcast has been helpful for your mental health.
    Continue taking care of yourself. I am proud of you for this.

    Sending hope,

  11. Neesha Volunteer

    Hi Colton95,
    It sounds like you’ve have super stressful time at work, makes sense that you lashed out and I am glad your coworkers forgave you. Taking a day off was a good idea, and it is nice you were able to take that self care. How wonderful that your podcast is bringing you joy and I hope you have a lovely Christmas.

  12. mikaylaanne11 Volunteer

    Hey colton95!

    I’m glad to hear about the good days and the rest you’ve been able to get. Sometimes we just have to take it one day at a time and hope for the best kind of day. Getting worn out by the bad days certainly drains you, so I’m glad you have good things to focus on! Wrapping presents is my favorite part of the holidays, so I hope you get to have some fun with that too 🙂

  13. Breanna Volunteer

    Hey colton95,

    Thanks for giving us an update. I’m sorry work hasn’t been great. I think I would have been similarly frustrated in the same situation. We forget sometimes but we are all human, not robots. I’m sure part of that played into the forgiveness from your coworkers. I hope you’re not being too hard on yourself about that. And I am happy to hear you gave yourself a day off! It seems like that was well-deserved and I’m glad it helped you rest and feel better. It sounds like you’ve been productive and engaged with things that make you happy, and that is lovely. I hope the next few days are good for you, too 🙂

    Sending you love and support,

  14. music2799 Day Captain

    Hi colton95,
    Given the circumstances, it’s understandable that you were angry. I’m glad your coworkers forgave you and that you’re doing better. I imagine that having a day off was incredibly helpful, and I’m glad you took some rest. It’s great that you’re making money. Keep doing what you love and talking to your friends! It’s important to stay connected to others, especially during this pandemic. I hope your family will like the gifts and appreciate the thought you put into giving them something special! I also hope this week is good for you. Thank you for the update. Let us know whenever you need anything; we’re here for you!

  15. ryannlashea Day Captain

    hi, thank you so much for the update. Self-care is so important and I’m glad that you took some time for yourself. I’m so glad to hear that you’re doing well. I hope things continue to get better for you!!

  16. Bluebell13 Volunteer

    Dear colton95,
    Thank you for coming back to give us an update. That sounds like it was a really bad day. It is good to hear that despite having a bad day, you are able to move forward and have good days.
    Sending you love and strength,

  17. e.almaguer Volunteer

    Hi there, thanks for the update! I am sorry to hear you had such a bad week but things seemed to turn around a little bit, that’s great. Has happened to me a lot but when you have a positive mind set and don’t let those bad days get to you as much things seem to clear up and you get somewhat of a good karma for not losing it! Love the early Christmas gift shopping idea its better to shop right now, they have such good deal at the moment! I am sure your family will love their gifts!! take care come back for another update 🙂

  18. Starling Volunteer

    Hi colton95,
    Thank you for continuing to share your story with us. I’m sorry that you had such a rough day at work. It must have been difficult for you. I’m glad that you were able to call off of work and get some rest. Also, congratulations on the raise! If you ever need anything, let us know. We’re always here for you.

  19. jlanderos16 Volunteer

    Hey Colton95,
    Thank you for returning back to AVFTI and giving us an update about yourself! First off, I’m sorry you had a rough couple of days at work, and that’s good to hear how your co-workers forgive you for yelling and cussing at them. But, I’m glad you called off and get to rest and having a big check and congratulations on your raise!!!! I’m glad how your podcast is helping you with your mental health! It sounds like you been having some good days besides work but keep it up and can’t wait for another update about yourself.

  20. rachelb098 Volunteer

    Hi colton95,

    Thank you for sharing with us today, we appreciate your update. I’m sorry to hear about what happened on Tuesday that must have been incredibly frustrating to be yelled like that by customers when you were just trying to clean up someone else’s mess. It’s completely understandable that you felt angry and I’m glad that things have started looking up. Congratulations on your raise! The podcast sounds like a wonderful project and it’s amazing that it’s helped bring you some peace, you really deserve it. I’m sure your family will love your gifts! Take care and stay safe.


  21. sfmbelle413 Day Captain

    Hey there Colton95,

    Thank you for sharing an update. It says great things about yourself that you were able to recognize you needed a break and took that break. I’m glad you got some rest. Rest can go a long way – sometimes we just need to recharge. I’m glad to hear that working on your podcast has been great for your mental health and that you’re doing well. Keep on shining!

    Sending light your way,

  22. cindy024 Volunteer

    Hi, Colton95,
    First of all, thank you for sharing with us! this takes a lot of courage and bravery to share! I am very glad that you are doing better! venting and healing is a good way for you to express your emotions and feelings! I know that you were in an overwhelming position and that you were in a tough spot! Not to worry we are always here to help and support you!

  23. meg Day Captain

    Hi Colton95!

    Thanks for coming back to update us! Ugh… coworkers and customers being the worst on the same day. Customer service jobs are truly so difficult and I commend you for keeping your head up after the fact and recognizing how difficult of a day it was for you emotionally. What is something you can do in the future if a similar situation happens to help you from lashing out at your coworkers? Would you feel comfortable asking for more help? It’s a wonderful thing that you took time off for yourself to recover. Podcasting is an excellent way to be creative and get yourself out there. You reminded me to start shopping!!! I hope you’ve had an excellent few days. Keep yourself breathing when you go to work. Update us soon<3


  24. jao1820 Volunteer

    Hey Colton95,

    Thank you for updating us! Im sorry you had a terrible day on tuesday. Sometimes we just need to express ourselves and get our anger and frustration out. It’s nice to hear that your co-workers/friends forgave you. Everyone needs friends who are able to be there in the good and bad, and forgive us even in our worst moments. Its great to hear that the following days were much better for you. In life there really are ups and downs, and it sounds like you experienced that. I hope you continue to have good days, and keep that optimistic outlook!

    – J.A.O.

  25. Mary Ella Volunteer

    Hi colton95, thank you for this update. I am glad that you are having a better week, especially after last Tuesday! You totally deserve that rest day, and congratulations on the raise! I am also glad that you are focusing on something that is really good for your mental health – that is so important! I hope you have a wonderful week!

  26. aegardiner Volunteer

    HI colton95,

    It’s good to hear an update from you! I’m sorry to hear about everything that happened at work. It’s understandable that you were frustrated – we can all relate to those types of days. I’m glad to hear that you on good terms with everyone at work and that things have gotten better. That is also so great about the podcast – I’m glad you have it as an outlet. I’m sure you family will love the gifts that you have gotten for them – it’s the thought that counts more than anything. You are super on top of it – I still need to do all my shopping. I hope that you have a gook week and that we hear from you again soon!

  27. sarahj Volunteer

    Hi colton95,

    Thanks for sharing the update with us! I’m sorry to hear about your crappy work situation, but — I can relate. Sometimes things come out of us and before we can stop them, there they are, already out in the universe. I am sure your co-workers understand the stress of the situation, and though they might have also been disgruntled, they forgive you. I am glad to hear you continue to work on your podcast and that brings you relief with your mental health. Also — hurray for getting some Christmas shopping done early, I envy you!! 🙂 Keep your chin up & keep doing the hard work! You are making progress.
    Looking forward to reading another update,

  28. haesol Volunteer

    Hi colton95,

    Thank you so much for the update! I’m sorry tuesday wasn’t a good day, but I’m glad to hear the next days were better. Everyone has bad days and lashing out is normal, it’s good that you took a day off after that.

    Congrats on getting a raise! that’s really wonderful, I hope you keep up the good work. The early Christmas shopping sounds exciting, I’m sure your family will love what you’ve gotten for them!

    I hope the next days keep being good for you, stay safe!

  29. eagle206 Volunteer

    Hi colton95,

    Thank you for coming back to update us! I’m sorry to hear that you had a tough day at work. It’s always very frustrating when you feel like other people don’t pull their weight at work. I’m glad that things are ok with your coworkers despite the little fights. Congratulations on the raise at work! It’s nice to see your hard work pay off. Ah, I love buying my family gifts, that’s so fun! I’m sure they will like them. I hope your days continue to go well.

    Stay strong,


  30. Amysue43 Volunteer

    Thank you for sharing and updating us on your life! It’s been a rough week, but you’ve powered through it and you are excited about the little things in life – like getting your family Christmas gifts and the excitement that comes with wrapping them and holding that secret until they open them. I think you’re doing a really good job of looking at the bright side of things, which can be really hard at times! You’re doing awesome!
    Stay strong <3

  31. Ruby98 Volunteer

    Hi Colton95,
    Thanks for sharing this update with us. I can completely relate to you in regards to cleaning up someone else’s mess at work, it’s frustrating not only because not only are you doing someone else’s dirty work but you were not even receiving help for it. With that being said I think your coworkers understood why you were upset, but good for you for taking the day off maybe that is what you needed to feel a little better. No one is perfect and sometimes emotions are inevitable so don’t feel guilty for feeling what you feel in the moment. Congratulations on your race by the way that’s a big win for you! good luck on your podcast I’m sure it’ll be a great one. I too have been buying early Christmas gifts, it’s the best feeling! I hope you find tour self having a great upcoming week, take care and stay safe!

  32. Ashley Day Captain


    Your coworker should have helped clean the mess he created and the customers had no right to yell at you for something that’s out of your control. I’m thinking that the blackout affected your ability to do your job; it’s strange that they didn’t send everyone home.
    Since you began to cuss and yell at your coworkers, I can tell that it was a difficult day. None of us are perfect and controlling our anger in certain situations isn’t always easy.
    Good on you for taking Wednesday off. It sounds like you recognized you needed some time away from work and I’m glad you were able to have that time to recuperate.
    Congratulations on getting a raise 🙂

    I hope the next few days will be good for you.


  33. Erin O'Callaghan Day Captain

    Thank you for coming back to share. I’m so sorry for that bad day at work, but glad you are doing better. Great that you’re doing a podcast and pursuing your hobbies! Keep at that.


  34. Lex Volunteer

    Hi colton95,

    Thank you for sharing with us again. I am sorry to hear that Tuesday was rough a day. It can be frustrating when co-workers are not contributing the same amount of effort as you, it can feel as though you are doing everything on your own. I am glad that you were able to rest on Wednesday after what happened to the previous week. I am glad you are feeling better now and are working on your podcast, it is important that you are doing things that are helpful for your mental health. Also, congratulations on your raise, that must have been so exciting!

    Stay strong! We are always here for you.

  35. Ochoa Volunteer

    Hey colton95,
    Thanks for the update. It’s always great to comeback and share when needed. Sorry Tuesday wasn’t the best day for you. I totally understand wheee you are coming from because I have a part time job and I deal with customers. It can get a bit overwhelming especially when they get upset. Glad your co workers where understanding of the situation. There will be better days trust me! Stay strong, hope to hear from you soon.

  36. lizzi

    Hey colton95,
    That sounds like a really awful day at work. I’m proud of you for taking a day off to rest and take care of yourself. It’s so important that we put our own health first, physically and mentally. Work is important too, but it sounds like you really needed some time away from your coworkers. I’m glad that you’re friends with some of them! That definitely helps and makes work a bit more fun. Congrats on the raise! I’m glad that you had a good day, and I hope your days continue to be good as well. Sounds like you’re doing a lot of great things for yourself

  37. almax Volunteer

    Hey Colton95, thank you for the update. I’m sorry work was so rough, it’s really frustrating when you’re just trying to do your job and things that are out of your control go wrong left and right. I’m glad your coworkers forgave you though. That’s really great that you got a raise, hard work pays off, I’m sure your family is going to like the gifts. Good luck on your podcast and I wish you lots of positivity.

  38. snandi2 Volunteer

    Hey colton95,
    Thanks for the update! I’m sorry that Tuesday was so stressful for you. Sometimes, our anger and stress gets the best of us, and we end up saying or doing things that we don’t really mean to do or say. I’m glad that your co-workers were understanding enough to forgive you. You definitely deserved to have a break on Wednesday! I hope everything goes well for you in the future and please feel free to continue posting updates.

  39. pinksky92 Volunteer

    Hello colton95,

    I think you lashing out was understandable. Your rough day makes sense given all of the many minor and major inconveniences. It is truly upsetting when customers are rude because it is obviously not your fault, so I totally understand where your frustration is coming from. I think that you need to give yourself a lot of credit, because your reaction is one that reflects your frustration. You were frustrated and became quite upset with those around you, I think that is completely understandable. So, try and not over think and analyze that. The reason your co-workers forgave you was because they probably felt like your anger was justified.

    I am very happy to hear that you are working on your podcast, which is clearly something that has been great for your mental health. It is important during these times that we do have these activities that we can fall back on. Taking the time to focus on these types of projects is very beneficial since it can make you feel fulfilled. Glad you could also spend time with friends.

    Take care and I hope the next few days will be good for you!

  40. ajklessig Volunteer

    Hello colton95,
    Thank you for taking the time to update us! I am sorry that you had a difficult time at work on Tuesday. After working as a cashier myself, I totally understand how customers can be. Sometimes, I feel like they forget that you are human too! I am glad you were able to take Wednesday off from work and have time to rest. Sometimes, mental health days are critical for our well-being. Congrats on the raise too! I am sure your family is going to love their Christmas gifts. Even just the fact that you thought about getting them something is very kind! I am glad things started to turn around for you by the end of the week. I hope you have a great week next week!

  41. candyappleb Day Captain

    Hi colton95,

    I’m sorry you had a rough day on Tuesday. I’m glad your coworkers were understanding. Sometimes a frustrating situation gets the best of us. Lashing out happens. It’s good that you were able to recognize it. It sounds like you did the right thing on Wednesday by taking some time for self-care, and I’m glad things were better on Thursday. Feel free to keep us updated.

    All the best,

  42. mjy1999 Volunteer

    Thank you for updating. It sounds like you were having a crazy week. Good luck with the podcast. Feel free to come back and update.

  43. adrian Volunteer

    Hey, Colton95-

    Thanks for reaching out again and trusting us with your updates! It sounds like you’ve had a whirlwind of a week, but were still able to find some positive aspects. One of which is your day off that you took- what a great idea! Sometimes we need a day off and it is positive that you identified that and took action on it. It sounds like you truly are doing well and we hope to keep hearing about your progress! Keep fighting the good fight-

    Take care,

  44. Northlane1991 Volunteer

    Hey Colton

    I am so glad you had a couple of good days. Stress at work is definitely understandable and thank you for updating us/ Having a good team is so important. Take care man!

  45. musicislove

    Hi Colton95,

    I’m so glad that you’ve had a good couple days, and I hope the next few days will be good for you as well. Stress at work is definitely understandable, and it suck when you feel like things are against you. I’m glad you still have a good relationship with your coworkers there and that you’re still working on your podcast and spending time with your friends, that’s great. Thank you for the update!


  46. Alyssa Day Captain

    Hi colton95,
    I’m sorry that last Tuesday was very rough. Everyone has bad days, but it seems like you bounced back and that is great. I’m happy that you were able to take off work Wednesday to relax and take a day for yourself. I also started holiday shopping early. Thank you for the update. It is always good to hear from you!

  47. AlisonDKaufman

    Hello colton95

    Thank you for the update and it sounds like you have several things to be uplifted about! Being aware of your mental health is so important and I’m incredibly impressed that you knew a day off of work was in YOUR best interest. We call that a Personal Mental Health Day at my house! I also love to hear you acknowledging the hard day but being able to turn and recognize the positive days is such a strong character trait; sometimes we dwell only on the negative but don’t seek to find the ‘glass 1/2 full’ – you should feel very proud of this trait.

    Keep your needs in focus and stay the course! Thank you for sharing with us again.

  48. KatherineL Volunteer

    Hey colton95,

    It sounds like you have quite a few good things going for you right now. You have co-workers/friends who understand what you’re going through and are willing to forgive you. You have the self-awareness and self-care that you know when you need a day away from work. And you’re earning money. It’s also wonderful that you have your podcast, which sounds like a great way to bring happiness by doing something you love. I’m sorry that you had a bad day at work. It sucks, and unfortunately there’s always going to be bad days. But you have a lot of good things happening right now! I am glad you’re doing well today and hope the next few will be good as well. Take care!


  49. colton95 Volunteer

    Oh, and regarding my last post, my mom and I are doing much better. She’s not going to kick me out anymore.