For those who have dealt with abuse of any sort (sexual, psychological, mental, physical, etc) much like myself, I take no pride in being a survivor, but nor am I a victim.
The most hated statement after I tell people my trauma, is “But it has made you stronger.” My God do I hate it. In certain ways, yes it has, but in the end, I don’t want to be strong. All I want is peace, and to be loved through every inch of this drained soul of mine while I work on regaining myself for the better, for repairing the wounds that were inflected on me in any shape or form. The only thing all of us can do is take life one day at a time, and realize we’re worthy. But as far as I’m concerned, there’s no pride in being a victim nor a survivor. We didn’t ask for this.