I’ve been sharing a lot since I’ve found this site. It’s been very therapeutic for me. Anyway I’m writing about PTSD now because I’m not experiencing it. I’ve been raped 8 or 9 times. (The number’s so high because Justin would have sex with me several times while I was too drunk and high to consent. By reading the stories on here, I’ve discovered that if you are in an incapacitated state, you can’t give consent.) I’ve also been molested twice (once in childhood and once in adulthood) and I’ve been through a myriad of other things as well. With all of that being said, I don’t have any triggers or anxiety. I do struggle with depression but that’s been an ongoing battle since childhood.
I do have problems with sex, however. I don’t like being taken from behind (thanks to a violent rape that happened last October) and I no longer get turned on. I don’t think they’re symptoms of PTSD, I just think they’re a product of my rapes.
Anyway, can anyone explain to me why I don’t have PTSD? Maybe I’m too desensitized but people have been through way worse, yet they struggle with that form of anxiety. Thoughts would be greatly appreciated. I’m just writing this now to try and get a better understanding of what I’m not going through.