Never Give Up!

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Got the best news I can remember,

Went to the clinic yesterday, I was feeling nauseated and pain in my back.

I told the doctor what was wrong, he must have heard something I told him, or saw the pain in my eyes, cause the next thing I know, they were not only taking my blood pressure which was very high, but brought the older head doctor in the room.

Within a hour I was given numerous kidney stone tests, I have to wear that high blood pressure device for 48 hours, they increased my blood pressure med for the morning, and the very best the older doctor recognized PTSD, asked me about it, I told him about the rape, and abuse where he gave me a brochure of free therapy and counseling, telling me that I’ve been through so much within the last 37 years, that what I’m experiencing is extreme PTSD, which needs and must be dealt with.

He concluded by saying your 51 years old, and have another 20 good years, we going to get you through this.

With tears of humility, and joy the only thing I can say for anyone who is like me, suffering and it looks like a dead end.

Never give up, I’m living proof, 37 years of constant roadblocks, and dead ends and now for one of the few times in my life, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.


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  1. Brianna W Volunteer Volunteer

    Thank you for sharing you’re story ,I’m sorry for what you went through and I’m happy you got the help you need.if you have any questions or if you need anything we are always here to help. We stand behind you 100% and are always here to listen and give the support you need. Please come back if you ever need anything else , stay strong


  2. Kevin Casey Volunteer

    Thank you for sharing you’re story I’m sorry for what you went through I’m happy you got the help you need you have a good attitude there’s an old saying life is like a box of chocolates you never know what you’re going to get if you have any questions or if you need anything we are always here to help

  3. Roxie-heart317 Volunteer

    Thanks for sharing, I know it’s not easy sharing and putting yourself out there . We are proud of you ❤️❤️

  4. Jess Volunteer

    Thank you for sharing with us. I’m so glad your doctor was able to recognize the symptoms and help you find the help you needed. That kind of support system is vital. That light at the end of the tunnel is beautiful, so keep fighting to get to it. Don’t give up and stay strong. <3 Please let us know if there is anything else we can do to help you. We are always here for you.

  5. JFeeney21 Volunteer

    Hi focus.1968

    Glad to hear from you again. Also I’m so glad that a doctor recognized the signs of your suffering and gave you a support system to help you get better. I hope that the therapy really helps and I hope you continue taking care of yourself. We are always here for you.

  6. SAL Volunteer

    Thank you for sharing your story with us. I’m so happy that you were given help. That someone saw you and saw how much pain you were in and offered help. I hope things are going well. Let us know if there’s anything we can do.
    Stay Strong,

  7. Bluebell13 Volunteer

    Dear focus.1968,
    I am so glad that someone recognized your pain, validated it for you, and is helping you through it. You will have your light at the end of the tunnel and goodness in your life. Take care of yourself and accept help from others. You deserve all of the love and goodness that comes your way!
    Sending you love and strength,

  8. Erin O'Callaghan Day Captain

    I am so glad to hear from you again, and to hear that your doctor recognized your pain and gave you all the supports. I hope therapy and counseling breathe a new life into you, and let us know how else we can help.


  9. Alyssa Day Captain

    Hi focus.1968,
    I’m so happy for you! This is great news. I’m happy you are finally able to get the help that you need. It sounds like you are in great hands. Let us know if we can do anything to help you. Continue to stay strong.

  10. Marissa Day Captain

    Hey focus.1968,

    Thanks for keeping us updated. I’m so glad to hear that you can see the light at the end of the tunnel! It’s so exciting to see how well you’re doing, and it’s super awesome that the head doctor was able to recognize what you’ve gone through so quickly and give you such amazing advice. You’re awesome and a huge inspiration. Stay strong!!

  11. Solongago Volunteer

    Hi Sister!

    I was also born in ’68. And that line, “37 years of constant roadblocks and dead ends, and now for one of the few times in my life, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.” That is awesome!

    I hope that you will find in this therapy, the way to release shame and guilt and anger and pain and self-doubt and self-hatred, and to replace that with a sense of accomplishment, self-confidence, a sense of contentedness, understanding and acceptance of the beautiful being that you were, that you were meant to be, and that you are.

    It’s not easy, and I think someone else said it best about how it is almost as hard doing this as it was surviving that. But there is good in this.
    We have to embrace and accept the negative crap we said to ourselves at the time in order to survive.
    We have to, in order to let go of these things and make room for the truth about ourselves.
    We have to build a new understanding of who we are and who we want to be and make it so.

    I am wishing you much success through this experience and am so happy you have found this resource.

    1. focus.1968

      Just wanted to thank you, but also to let you know that I’m a man, I hope I didn’t offend you, I just think it helps complete the whole picture of my story, and struggles.

      Stay strong, and thanks again

  12. Zoe

    Hi, focus.1968.

    Thank you for sharing this with us, and for encouraging those of us who have been affected by sexual violence. You’re extremely resilient, and your doctor is right– you can get through this. Keep going strong, you’ve done so well despite being through so much. And we’re here to support you along the way, as much as you need.


  13. Northlane1991 Volunteer

    This was such a powerfil read thank you for sharing your story. Showing a ton of faith in yourself is very important and i am glad the doctor was being supportive. He is right though you do have a ton of life to live and i am glad he was able to helpo. Thanks for sharing some great news.

  14. music2799 Day Captain

    Hi focus.1968,
    I’m so happy for you!! I’m so glad that the doctors were perceptive and that you felt safe enough to tell your story. I would definitely recommend the therapy and counseling. Talking to someone about what happens in our lives can help so much.
    I’m extremely proud of you. You have been through a lot, and the strength you have is incredible. I’m confident that you’ll keep progressing in your healing journey, and I’m excited for you. We’re always here to support you, and thank you for sharing this great news. Please keep us updated!

  15. Sweetny Volunteer

    This was amazing to read! Your positive energy and your faith in yourself is more powerful than most people realize. It is wonderful that the doctor was able to see your pain and offer you a helping hand, through which he reinforced that you are not alone. People care about you and will help you get through this. Every day is a milestone and a success – you overcame whatever that day had to throw at you. And you’re doing amazing.

  16. Megan Volunteer

    This is AWESOME! I am sooo happy for you! That doctor is right. You are so strong and you will get through this. I would definitely suggest following up with that free therapy and counseling!! Seeing my therapist that I have now has helped me so much in processing and moving forward from my past experiences. Thank you for sharing your story and your wonderful message of hope with us today! Never give up!

  17. jamie.lynn Volunteer

    THIS IS AMAZING! I am so glad that your doctor was able to recognize this in you and that you were/are at a place to hear it and accept the invitation for further healing! He is right, you have a lot of life left to live and I am so glad he is able to help you find free counseling to get you through this! Please keep us updated!!


  18. Thomas Volunteer

    Hi focus.1968,

    It is great to hear from you again! And this is wonderful news. I am sure it feels very empowering and validating to not only hear someone acknowledge your experience, but be there to guide you to a better future. It makes me happy to see that you have found some wonderful doctors who are able and willing to help. Your strength and perserverence have absolutely paid off. You deserve so much credit. I am excited for what you will do next. Please let us know if there is anything else we can do for you. Thank you for letting us know about this wonderful update.