Got the best news I can remember,
Went to the clinic yesterday, I was feeling nauseated and pain in my back.
I told the doctor what was wrong, he must have heard something I told him, or saw the pain in my eyes, cause the next thing I know, they were not only taking my blood pressure which was very high, but brought the older head doctor in the room.
Within a hour I was given numerous kidney stone tests, I have to wear that high blood pressure device for 48 hours, they increased my blood pressure med for the morning, and the very best the older doctor recognized PTSD, asked me about it, I told him about the rape, and abuse where he gave me a brochure of free therapy and counseling, telling me that I’ve been through so much within the last 37 years, that what I’m experiencing is extreme PTSD, which needs and must be dealt with.
He concluded by saying your 51 years old, and have another 20 good years, we going to get you through this.
With tears of humility, and joy the only thing I can say for anyone who is like me, suffering and it looks like a dead end.
Never give up, I’m living proof, 37 years of constant roadblocks, and dead ends and now for one of the few times in my life, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
NEVER GIVE UP!