Hey everyone, it’s Jamie.
I’ve just came home from Ohio where I was staying with my boyfriend and his family. Unfortunately, I didn’t realize just how bad my PTSD is, from the way both he & I would set each other off with our episodes (he has severe PTSD, too), which was damaging me even further.
We’re not broken up or anything, and I do love him and try incredibly hard not to let his past abuse and trauma affect me too much, but I knew I needed to come home and get help myself. I actually have an appointment to see a psychiatrist to be prescribed meds for my own health. It’s just hard to help him when his episodes are unleashed, and I’m already in an extremely fragile state of mind.
I don’t want to break up with him, so if anyone can guide me into helping myself so I can help him even better, that’d be great. I just need to learn not to take my PTSD out on him, and I know he promised he’d try to get help himself, and we both agreed once I get back there eventually, we’ll try therapy together. I guess I somehow thought I could help him without getting emotionally damaged and drained, too, but it’s hard.