I haven’t written about this yet because, to this day, it hasn’t really affected me. Maybe I’m in denial, maybe I don’t want to face reality, or maybe I’m just scared of how traumatizing this situation could really be to a child.
I was 6 years old when it happened. I was at my grandfather’s house (my mom’s dad). He was sitting on the couch and I was in his lap. I remember him touching my vagina through the outside of my pants. I was frozen. I knew what he was doing felt wrong but I didn’t say anything. It felt like the touching was never gonna end, but, in reality, probably only went on for a few minutes.
I don’t know where my mom was while he was doing this. We were visiting him so she had to be around somewhere, but all I can remember is his sinewy hand playing with my parts.
I decided to finally tell this story because another member on here was also molested once by her grandpa (on her mom’s side too). Like me, she was unmoved by the situation.
What do you guys think? Am I right to not have feelings about this? I mean, I’ve always disliked by grandpa for what he did but it’s not like I get flashbacks or nightmares about it.
Anyway, thanks for reading my story. Maybe you guys have gone through something similar. If you have, I’m so sorry, but at least we’re not alone.