I just need to get this off my chest. I’ve been thinking a lot about him and what he did to me. He raped me, filmed it, and proceeded to share those videos with other men. (I found out about this when a friend who ran in our same social circle told me.) Anyway there were other instances too, like him encouraging me to drive drunk just so I could give him head, which is ironic and pathetic because he’s a recovering alcoholic. Or the times he would force me and pressure me into taking pics and making vids of myself masturbating.
I know I’ve already written about him a couple of times but I’m still so angry. He gets to live his life untouched and unharmed while he left me with scars. He was my first and he definitely didn’t deserve my body, but he had his way with me anyway. I wish he was dead, but from the looks of it on Facebook, he’s living his best life. I never got any justice and I’m still pissed about it to this day.