Hey AVFTI family, I just wanted to pop in and let everyone know I’m back from my mini trip to Pittsburgh. Unfortunately, as I told my mom, getting out of the area did help a little, but my PTSD would follow me anywhere I go. I had a minor breakdown at a milkshake shop, so it doesn’t matter exactly where I go. But all in all, it was a busy trip for me so I barely had time to do my own personal shoots.
But I did, however, earn enough funds for my CBD oil, which I have taken already from PureKana. I know it’ll take a while, as well as giving my new therapy a chance once I get seen.
But I do feel depressed today seeing as though tomorrow is my deceased friend’s Birthday (she would’ve been 26), so I’m just in a depressive state of mind, but I did learn while I was in Pittsburgh that I was accepted into a mental health wellness program.
The program would be for 3 months of training, plus 6 months of a paid internship and then afterwards get a career in that field. Part of me wants to move back to the city, but my mom is worried I’d end up slipping and go through more stress due to this condition, which i can see her point. I want to go since I know people I can move in with, and I’d have a support system up there as well, but I will be meeting with the program director in July for my next visit.
There’s just too much on my mind with my future…