Thank you all so very much, usually the panics I get are brought on by excessive stress or changes both good or bad in a relative short period of time.
This time though it led into CVS, which is a cycle of vomiting up to 15-20 times a day, I’m just grateful that I had someone who in less than a hour had taken me to the hospital, not having to wait 4-5 hours. I’m also grateful that both these disorders don’t last more than a day, then a couple of days to get my strength back.
Again I can’t say it enough how good it feels to be loved as I love in return.
For me I wonder how I ever lasted as long as I did the way I was, cause being loved shows me how important it is, in a sense it could be compared to eating or breathing, it is necessary in order to live, I can are that now.