My mom owns her business so during 2020 she worked half a day or more almost every day while leaving me and her boyfriend home alone. Mom’s boyfriend was 450 pounds, hairy, ugly, and always stunk because he didn’t shower. I’m going to call him Jabba because he was like Jabba the hutt from star wars.
Mom told me that Jabba was in charge when she was gone and that she had better not hear any problems about me from him. I never had a dad, I didn’t know much about guys, or sex, or had many friends or anything so when it started and he told me that it was normal I didn’t know what to think. Mom took away my phone and laptop because she caught me looking at a website reading about shaving your pussy which was new to me and she thought the phone and computer were bad influences.
Jabba slept, ate, and played Call of Duty all day. I was with him all day while he played that. He would get naked and sit on the couch with his snacks and controller and tell me to get naked for him. Once I was naked he made me kneel between his thighs and hold his gross penis in my mouth. Then he’d trap my arms underneath his ass. With my arms under him I was stuck because he was so fat. He then hung his legs on my shoulders and trapped my head in his thighs. While I was stuck like that he’d play the game.
His rule was that I had to keep his penis in my mouth at all times. If he got hard then I had to suck his penis until he came and got soft again. Later he made a rule that I had to drink all of his pee because he didn’t want to get up to go to the bathroom while playing.
I feel very stupid because I know he tricked me now. I didn’t know that wasn’t normal. He gave me printed pages from a health site to read saying that it was normal for girls to do stuff like that with their dads and other guys and that it was healthy for guys to keep their penises warm and that girls should help them with that for as long as the guys wanted even if the girls hated it. Later he gave me more pages from the same health site saying that it was healthy and normal for guys to pee in girls mouths and they shouldn’t pee in toilets at all. Both articles looked very professional so I believed them. He also showed me texts between him and my mom where she agreed that I should be keeping his penis warm for him and later drink his pee for him. I was so embarrassed and grossed out that I never talked with my mom about that in person. I now know all those pages and texts were fake and that I was stupid for believing them. He always stopped before mom got home. I didn’t think he was hiding it because I thought that mom was doing it for him when I wasn’t because I heard them have sex a lot and I saw mom giving him a blowjob a few times because they left their door cracked a lot.
I spent most of the year with his penis in my mouth sucking him and drinking his pee for him all because he had fun abusing me. I hated it so much every second of every day. He’s been gone for a long time now but I can’t get over what he did to me and I can’t forgive myself for how stupid I was. I sometimes feel like I deserved all of that for being so dumb.