This happened decades ago and I’ve never spoken about it to anyone. I did mention it to my cousin and my sister but never gone into detail. I also want to say nothing ever happened to me physically but I was emotionally and mentally traumatized by what occurred to me. I was groomed at a young age by a man I met on the internet. I was young in my early teens doing what kids in the late 90s do and surfing the web and going on to chat rooms on aol back when it was a thing. Met this guy on the internet he stated he was 18 and I was just 12 at the time. I was so naive then and I guess that’s how I was manipulated. This guy made me do things in camera for him under the guise of love or what I thought was love. I feel so much guilt because of this. This went on for about 3 years until he decided to go ghost. I felt I may have did something wrong and going into my late teens the depression hit hard. He then came back into my life for a brief period but i fell back in the same routine and he disappeared again. I came to find out later he was a lot older than he said and that he could have been doing this to other kids my age. I beat myself up for being so easily manipulated. I’m so guarded now. I do not feel comfortable to be in any sort of relationship. The doubt in my head makes me sick. What is even sicker is that he may have recorded some of the things I did and the fear of knowing that it could be out there has made me weary of everyone. I know people have gone through way worse but I feel that now as an adult I should try to put it to word. I don’t know if this would be even be considered abuse but I know that I was young and he was an adult and that it happened. I never told my parents About this, my dad passed away several years ago so he never knew. I don’t know if it’s relief I think it’s a step forward in my healing process. I do ask the others if you have children please let them know about the strangers on the Internet. My parents are good parents they taught me right from wrong And this was at the advent of the internet. But when you’re young you think you can do anything and be anything and I feel so much shame because of this. I know it’s not really my fault but it’s really hard not think so.