When I was originally raped in 1981 and my mother told me not to let anyone in the house, was I at fault for letting them in to watch Rocky 2, while I was raped?
My mother tells me the fault lays with me, I see it differently. I didn’t want to be raped, I was dying for interaction from anyone, not even thinking of such a horrible thing to take place.
She blames me for getting raped, shaming everyone, and says cause I didn’t listen is the reason I’m fucked up.
Tell me the truth please, by not listening to what I was told mean I got what I deserve and should suffer the consequence, cause if that’s true why the hell do I even try, am I destined to forever suffer the guilt and shame of the trauma I’ve experienced, and will into the future.
Or since I didn’t know, ask, and or want what happened to me, make me one of many victims out there in the world.
Please let me know, I have to know.