Since Monday I have been hurting mentally cause of all the hell that I have been through.
My mind is recalling the rape, over and over, it reminds me of how my family degraded me only furthering the hurt.
I’ve been crying because of the nightmares I’ve had for nearly 40 years.
I don’t want to bring Crystal down to the level of my depression, even though I try and act like nothing is wrong, she sort of senses my feelings and without a word she just holds me close to her.
Please tell me am I going crazy, or is this something that I have to deal with throughout my life?
Sorry for the stress relapse, I just feel I can’t make it some days.
Please forgive me and my fears.