In 18 years I have not posted once about my struggles and today marks one year since my third and final brain surgery. In this past year I have had a total of 9 seizures and that is compare to the hundreds I used to get prior to the operations. I have been to 7 different hospitals 15 different times and had every type of testing you can imagine – MRI, EEGS, PET scans, CAT scans, blood work, memory exams – and one included even shutting down half of my brain. It really has not been an easy ride; I have many scars on my body triggered by the amount of anxiety and depression I struggled with on this journey and I now have some damage to my mental health, but no matter what I always made the best of my situation. I played games in the hospital to test my memory, which were so fun, I was given electric shocks to my brain to see how my body would react, I met so many nurses that considered me family while I was there and I met therapy dogs to cheer me up. I could not be more grateful for anything in my life and it was so comforting to discover that I was not the only one with the disorder. Epilepsy is not just a seizure, it is a disturbance and horrific feeling in the brain, and I am grateful to say that I have survived and am still pushing through all of the obstacles that these seizures have brought me and I am thankful to have had all the support and love with me while going through it. Everyone has a story and this one is mine. Always remember your not alone. I know this website is for telling your personal stories of abuse and asking for help and finding your voice, but I just want to remind people that no matter what, you can get through it. This does not mean I am cured of all depression and have no more problems but I just want to say that I love you all and cannot thank you more for everything.