I never posted here before but I was raped by someone I trusted and loved- my ex boyfriend almost 9 years ago now. However, I suppressed the memory until this last year. I am starting to do okay and feel okay. I spend a lot of time doing things that show I love myself and I understand that it was not my fault. I’m studying to become a reiki practitioner and meditate almost everyday. I work so hard to keep my anger in control. My ex boyfriend was sexually abused by a caregiver as a child and I’ve very much done everything I can to forgive him and the hurt he’s caused to me.
However, I am so tired of reading about how people are so “offended” that people requested to not hear “Baby it’s cold outside” and being called a snowflake..etc etc. I get it- society doesn’t care about survivors and only a rare few do. I just feel like every time I come out of it someone else on social media ruins it for me. I don’t want other people to control my happiness anymore. I’m so tired of being brought to tears by anger and hurt that survivors don’t matter to most of society- that their personal egos are more important than our right to heal.
I’ll see my therapist later and discuss with her but like so sick of how people are terrible. I’m so tired of being angry about it.