Here’s my story

Here’s my story

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5I was 6 or 7 when things got really bad for me. I was an energetic kid like most others, but when these things started happening I became scared, quiet. Here is my story.

My bus, bus 55 was never great. There was always fighting, blood, things to make me fear others. One day after school I’d gotten on that same hellish bus to go home from kindergarten. On the bus I can’t remember quite everything, but this day was the start of the most horrific time of my life. I was in my seat towards the back, everyone was loud as usual. I turned my head to where there was screaming, the bus driver blew a whistle and it didn’t seem to stop. The bus kept moving, the whistle kept blowing and the girl a seat behind the one next to me was still screaming. I was scared for my life as I looked at the girl, another girl pulling at her hair, then she took her head and slammed it into the window. The other girl cried and the more everything got louder the more blood I saw come from the girls head…. I got up to go closer to the bus driver at the first stop because I didn’t want to be anywhere near that anymore, but when little me stood up I was trampled and that same girl that smashed the other girls head into the window had trampled me, then she stomped on my face… I’m lucky to still be alive from that impact. The most that happened to me from that was I had a footprint on my face for 2 weeks. The girl didn’t get suspended or anything, I guess she’d been to every other school in the area and got kicked out because of the same stuff, so the school took pity on her. I got off the bus and went home. My parents found out what happened to me and were furious. After the footprint was gone from my face It was the weekend…. This is where it gets worse… I was alone outside picking up my toys in my fenced yard. Everyone else was in their rooms watching TV. I saw a women running from a dog and she hopped over my fence into my yard. I looked at her and the dog and dropped my toy. The women looked at me and looked around, then ran to me and covered my mouth with one hand so I wouldn’t scream… She whispered in my ear that if I told anyone about her that she’d kill me. That’s when with her other hand she took out a pocket knife and held it to my throat. A few tears rolled down my face. She slowly moved her hand from my mouth down to my pants… She touched me and did stuff for a few minutes. Then she stopped… She heard a door open in the neighborhood and freaked out. She ran and hopped back over the fence, turned and pointed the knife at me and ran away. I went inside and didn’t tell anyone. I just was quiet…

That stuff alone not counting everything else I’ve been through after that, caused me mental problems. I have to see a therapist every two weeks, take 2 pills a day for depression, I have anxiety, trust issues, but I am still strong. Anyone else who’s been through this and now has problems as well with their mental health, know that you’re not alone and you are strong because you lived through it.  


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28 comments

  1. Roxie-heart317

    You are so right, no one is alone and you are so brave for sharing your story thank you.

  2. Colton Kim

    I am really sorry that that happened to you. But you are right! No one is alone and everyone can be strong because of traumatic experiences, including you! No one should let their experiences define their character and their lives. I think that it is great that you shared your story on here, and I hope that you will continue to heal and stay strong!

    -Colton

  3. Mary Volunteer

    Hi A_Voice,

    Thank you for sharing. I am so sorry that you went through this. It sounds like the bus was a traumatizing situation for you. This woman coming into your own yard to attack you is terrifying. It is a completely normal reaction to stay quiet when something like this happens. You are a survivor. We all process trauma differently, and mental health issues like depression and anxiety can come into play. It sounds like you are taking great care of yourself with therapy and a medication. Do you feel like it is helping?

    Mary

  4. Jay Volunteer

    Thank you for sharing your story. You’re brave, and strong, and I’m so glad you know that you aren’t alone. Hopefully you continue on an upwards path, mental health is tricky but you sound like you’re determined not to let the past beat you, and that’s incredible.

  5. A_Voice

    Thank you guys for all the support. Yes the therapy is helping me and I’m so glad I have a place to trust people with my story and help others. Also yes I have told people now that I’m older. I have told my mom about the yard incident and my therapist. <3

  6. Jess Volunteer

    I am so sorry that this happened to you. Trauma is incredibly difficult to process, especially at such a young age. It’s amazing that you persevered and are now in therapy and treating your depression and anxiety. The strength it took to get to that point is immense, and I’m so glad to hear that you recognize that strength for what it is.

    Thank you for sharing your story with us. It can be incredibly difficult to share what we’ve been through. Like you said, you are not alone and you are strong because you are alive and kicking. You’re still here. Keep fighting. <3 If there is anything else that we can do for you, please let us know. We are always here and we believe you.
    -Jess

  7. Zoe Volunteer

    I am so sorry for what happened to you. You’re right, though–you’re very strong for persevering and getting through all the things you’ve been through. Do you feel that you have a good support system in place now? I know that can be really helpful in continuing to work through traumatic things that we’ve experienced.

    Thank you for trusting us with your story. Please let us know if there’s anything we can do for you. We’re here to support you.

    Zoe.

  8. kelly Day Captain

    Hi, A_Voice. I’m so sorry you experienced that at such a young age. I can’t imagine how scared you must have been. Thanks for sharing your story with us. You are incredibly strong for surviving everything you went through and I think it’s awesome that you can see that too. Please let us know if there’s anything we can do to help. We’re here for you and you’re not alone.

  9. blashea

    Hi, I am so sorry that this happened to you. You are right, you are so strong. We are proud of you for sharing your story with us and for your strength. We are here for you if you need anything!

  10. SAL Volunteer

    Thank you for sharing your story with us. I’m so sorry you had to go through that. I’m so glad that you were able to open up and talk about your story and that you’re seeing someone to help you through it. It’s hard, and you are strong. Things will keep getting better the more you keep working at them.
    Stay Strong,
    Stella

  11. MH Volunteer

    Hello A_Voice,
    I am so sorry for what happened to you. Thank you for having the courage to share with us. I am glad that you are seeing a therapist- i hope that it is helping you! We are always here for you.
    MH

  12. Sweetny Volunteer

    I’m so sorry about what happened to you. I’m glad you are still strong. Your strength is so important. It is so common for victims of abuse to have mental health issues that stem from their trauma, and incredibly important that we de-stigmatize this, so thank you for sharing this with us. We are always here for you if ever you need someone to hear your voice.

  13. Bluebell13 Volunteer

    Dear A_Voice,
    Thank you for trusting us with your story. You are strong to have been impacted by such trauma at a very young and to now be able to share your story in order to help others. I hope that the telling helps you heal as well. Please let us know if there is anything we can do for you and feel free to come back and post whenever you need.
    Sending you love and strength,
    Roxie

  14. jamie.lynn Volunteer

    A_Voice,
    Thank you for sharing your story with us. I know this is not easy or fun, but it is extremely valuable and can really help others who are struggling with the same thoughts and feelings you are. I am so sorry that all of these horrible things happened to you! I am so glad to read that you know these situation were not your fault and that you didn’t deserve this. I can only imagine the fear you felt and it makes total sense that you struggle with anxiety, depression and trust issues. I am so glad to hear that you reached out for help and are on your journey to healing. Please know we are here for you & are willing to help in any way we can!

    -jamie

  15. Jade Volunteer

    Thank you for trusting us with your story. I’m so sorry for what happened to you. Being so young and unable to protect yourself from bullies on a bus, the school should have done more to protect you and the other students. Regardless of her past, that girl who trampled you should have been disciplined. You didn’t deserve what she did to you. And you didn’t deserve what that other woman did to you as well. Both of these experiences are traumatic to say the least and it’s understandable that you would be dealing with these feelings as a result of all the trauma and pain you’ve endured. You are truly a strong individual. Please don’t ever give up hope and always stay strong. You are not alone, we are always here for you.

  16. music2799 Volunteer

    Hi A_Voice,
    I’m really sorry that you’ve been through so much. The school should have put a stop to what that girl was doing because she put other people in danger, and what she did was not okay. Witnessing and experiencing the effects of her violence sounds terrifying, and I’m so sorry that this happened.
    I understand why you remained quiet after the woman hopped into your yard. Threatening and assaulting someone would scare them into silence, especially if the person was so young. I want to remind you that what she did wasn’t your fault, and you didn’t deserve for it to happen to you.
    Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. That in itself takes bravery. I’m so glad that you’re taking steps to heal, and I hope that therapy is helping you. You’re right – you are strong, and you’re not alone. We’re here for you if you need anything from us, so please feel free to reach out. You can make it through this.

  17. Erin O'Callaghan Day Captain

    I am so sorry for the trauma you went through at such an early age. You didn’t deserve this, and this wasn’t your fault. Is therapy helping? I hope so-I know it’s helped me in the past. Please let us know how else we can support you. Thank you for sharing your story.

    Erin

  18. CarmenR Volunteer

    Hi there,

    I am so sorry to hear what you have been through. You were so young, and youd didn’t deserve it. What happened to you is in no way your fault. You are incredibly strong. Remember that. You are right in that you, and others who have experienced trauma, are not alone. We are here for you. We support you, and you are always welcome here.

    Carmen

  19. Ashley Day Captain

    It’s heartbreaking to hear that you experienced trauma at such a young age. Since you dealt with emotional strain, it’s not abnormal that you became fearful and silent.
    I can only imagine how frightening it must have been to witness the incident involving the window. You attempted to move away from the situation and I hate how the other girl took that as an opportunity to harm you. The school should have held her accountable for her actions.
    You are not to blame for what the woman chose to do. I believe you.

  20. rkr18 Volunteer

    A_voice

    I am so sad that you had to experience such trauma. We appreciate you so much for sharing I know this will help a lot of people facing the same trauma. You are a true blessing in this world! We are here for you
    -Marie

  21. Alyssa Day Captain

    Hi A_Voice,
    I am so sorry this happened to you. Just because the girl transferred schools so many times for her behavior does not give them a right to feel pity on her. She clearly has her own set of problems and needs help. The school shouldn’t have given her a free pass for what she did to you. I’m happy you are alive and well after that. If I was your parents I would be mad, too because they should have done something to help you.
    What that lady did to you outside is not okay either. Scaring you with a knife when you are so little is horrible. I’m happy someone went outside before it got worse. Have you told anyone now that you are older?
    You aren’t alone either. You have AVFTI. If you need anything let us know. You can always write back, use the “find help” tab on the top right corner of this page, or text VOICE to 741-741 for immediate help. Thank you for trusting and sharing your story with AVFTI. Continue to stay strong.
    -Alyssa

  22. Natalie M Day Captain

    Hi there A_Voice,
    I am so sorry that all of this happened to you at such a young age. You were so innocent, and you did not deserve either of these things that happened. Thank you for coming here to share your story with us. We know that it is not always easy to fo that. I’m glad that you know you are not alone. What you are going through is normal for what you have experienced. For me, the best way to start healing from a traumatic event is to talk about it. So it is really great that you came here! You have a tough journey to healing but we are here by your side! You are strong, never forget it!
    Sending hope,
    Natalie

  23. Solongago

    Thank you for sharing. I am sorry that happened to you. It wasn’t your fault, but you seem to get that. It has to be hard to have had so much violence growing up regularly in your neighborhood.

  24. Marissa Volunteer

    Hey A_Voice,

    Thanks for sharing your story with us. I can’t even imagine how scary of a childhood that must have been, but I’m so glad to hear that you are taking steps to better your life and help you cope. You’re right – you are strong. Please don’t hesitate to reach back out to us if you need anything at all. We are here for you, we support you and we believe you.

  25. Kailey2298 Volunteer

    Hi A_Voice,

    I’m so sorry for everything you went through, you didn’t deserve that. I’m sorry you have to go through this, you are so strong. Your not alone and it’s importnat to remember that. Anxiety and trust issues are normal and all of your feelings are valid. If we can help in any further way please let us know!!!
    Kailey

  26. Thomas Volunteer

    Hi A_Voice,

    I am so sorry that this happened to you. As you say yourself, you are strong because you lived through it. Your self validation is inspiring and you truly have perservered through so much. Healing is not a linear process. There are twists and turns, sometimes it can be slow. But the important thing is to put one foot in front of the other, and take it a day at a time. You are already doing a lot to heal and you should be proud of yourself for that. I hope the counseling has, and continues to be, helpful. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. As you say, you are not alone. We are here for you. Please let us know if there is anything we can do to help. Stay strong.

    Thomas

  27. Northlane1991 Volunteer

    Thank you for sharing yout story. I am so sorry this happened to you and you are going through a rough recovery. You are definetely not alone and we are here to support you in any way we can. I hope therapy helps and you contiune to be stronger everyday. We are here for you always!

  28. Julia Mandel Day Captain

    Thank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry that this happened to you and that you are going through a rough recovery. You are definitely not alone and we are always here to support you in any way that we can! I hope therapy continues well for you and that you continue to grow stronger everyday. Anxiety and trust issues can take a long time to overcome, but it can happen and I know you can do it. We are here for you always <3