Hey everyone it has been a really rough past few weeks and i be sharing for the first time on here. So here it goes. A few weeks back i lost my best friend my dog to cancer which i started to grieve with music and granted i still miss him because he was part of my life for 13 years. He was my Buddy for 13 amazing years. I had him since he was 3 months old. We had to put him down which was really hard because you feel like you lose yourself after doing that. I know it was for the better but still left a hole in my chest. While still grieving my Dog death it was a week later it was a anniversary week for a friend who passed away due to cancer which was a trigger for me because it all happened within 10 days and i didn’t even have time to process my dog’s death. Few days ago i lost my uncle to the Corona Virus in England. I have only met him twice but when we met both times it was like we known each other for years. He was at my wedding and i have a few pictures with him and when i see them i get teary. This Virus had risen my anxiety up since i haven’t had access to my gym to let it out. I have been reading and writing to help my emotions but i feel like i needed to let it out through using words.Its been really emotional because i still go outside to call his name but he not their or even to put his food out. One thing i learned is not to bottle things up and so i am here to express myself because it is a lot to go through within a few weeks without proper grief and or support. The interesting thing is i usually help people when they are in need and let them express what is going on in their life. Today is the day i wanted to let it out on here because sometimes we all need a little support system to help each other.
Just wanted to say that i appreciate me letting it out on here. I hope everyone is safe during this pandemic and know its been a difficult time for all of us. One love to all!