I feel like I can’t do this anymore. I can’t deal with the things inside me. I’m torn as to what I should do. I’m no more suicidal than normal. I’ve stuffed everything for so long that I’ve forgotten things I used to know. Now they are coming back. My therapist says she doesn’t think I’m crazy, that whatever is going on inside me is real. I still struggle to share with her, with anyone really. I think I’d rather be crazy and have made all this sick stuff up, than it be true. Does that make sense? I feel like I can’t do it. That I can’t deal with anything else. If it was just the things I know now, maybe I could cope, maybe I could work through it. More and more keeps coming up and I don’t know how to stop it. Going to therapy once per week, there isn’t time to bring up everything. I don’t know what to even bring up, then the hour is gone and I feel like I’ve gotten nowhere.
Any advice on how to make the stuff that comes up, stop? If I stop going to therapy, will it stop? Please help.