I had my therapy session on Wednesday, and I didn’t expect it to get this dark and deep during the session.
For those who aren’t aware, I was in a relationship with the guy I lost my virginity to, and we were sexually active prior to the rape.
I did consent at first, but this time it was extremely painful and I told him numerous times it was hurting and told him to stop, but he never did until he “finished.”
Fast forward to now, dealing with flashbacks, PTSD, therapy, and possibly disabilty.
The recent session had me thinking maybe it was my fault (which I know she did not intend for it to come out that way), but she wondered why I never said anything about it to him afterwards. Would it have mattered if I did? I did say “No” and “Please stop” throughout the “act”, but, now I’m doubting myself all over again…