Hey everyone, it’s Jamie.

It’s been a while since my last post, and I’ve decided to get back in touch with my doctor and have an appointment set up in a couple of weeks. I’m also going to see a specialist to be prescribed medical marijuana ’cause my mental health has been going downhill lately very quickly. It doesn’t help that my job is extremely stressful and dealing with people who yell, cuss, etc at you. I may also look into seeing my old therapist and hopefully she can help me process my last relationship so I can heal and move on properly. 

I’ve also been in touch with an old flame, and I think my feelings for him are starting to come back, but I’m not going to have high expectations for our sake, you know? Not after everything that has happened with my latest..


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  1. Monty Volunteer

    Hi Jamie Marie,
    I’m glad that you have a doctors appointment and might want to get back in touch with your therapist. With people yelling at you from your job i’m sure it’s not easy right now but just remember to take care of you and do what is going to benefit you the most. Thank you for coming back and posting an update I hope everything goes well at your doctors appointment!
    Monty 🙂

  2. pvb Volunteer

    Hi Jamie Marie,

    Thank you for coming back and updating us. I am glad you are helping yourself and prioritizing your emotional, physical, and mental health. You will find that job that will be good for your mental health. A job that you will want to show up to daily. I have faith in that. You seem to be moving in the right direction and that is what I love reading most. Put yourself first doing this moment and do what is benefiting you to be and feel better. I hope you update us on therapy. Stay strong Jamie!

  3. Jordan Volunteer

    Hey there Jamie Marie,

    Great to hear an update from you. <3 I think it is great that you are taking the steps that you feel necessary to help not only your mental health, but your healing journey as well. Work can be so stressful, so having a support system like your therapist (and even us) to help things get off of your chest can help so much with the mental clutter we experience on a daily basis. I totally get not having high expectations, you wanna go into it as natural as possible, but I do hope that it ends up being something more exciting and gives you something to look forward to. 🙂 Sending love and hugs your way!

    – Jordan

  4. hina.jawaid Volunteer

    Hello Jamie,

    Welcome back. Good to hear from you again. I am sorry to hear about you stressful daily life and job. I am glad that at least you are aware of it and trying to take care of yourself. In addition to psychiatrics therapy, I suggest that you should also try meditation and Yoga. It really helps me when I get depress. I hope you feel better. Take care of yourself.

  5. Brianna W Volunteer Volunteer

    Hey welcome back!

    So glad to hear from you again, it’s amazing to hear that you’re so aware of your mental health and are reaching out to your doctor for help. Your mental health is one of the most important things, I’m sorry work is a stressful environment and you have to deal with that it’s difficult but just take it day by day and take care of what matters first and that’s you! Hope to hear from you again soon! Stay strong you’ve got this!
    -Brianna

  6. Nichole-SW94 Volunteer

    Hello Jamie, welcome back and thank you for keeping us updated! I am thrilled that you have this upcoming appointment. Your mental health is BEYOND important. I am so sorry that you have a work environment that is so stressful. You do not deserve to be treated in such a manner. Whatever you need to help properly de-stress after a long day of work. Seeing your old therapist sounds like a great idea. Dealing with stress alone can be very overwhelming so we sometimes need that extra support to heal old wounds. An old flame can be comforting because it is familiar but I understand taking things slow and 100% agree.

    Your mindset is in the right place and you seem to know what you need to do. I wish I had that sense but I was too proud to seek out my old therapist. However, once I did, my healing was better than ever. I truly believe this will be the case with you as well. Please keep us updated on how your journey is going and we are always here to hear you!

  7. eagle206 Volunteer

    Hi Jamie,

    It’s really great to hear that you have been able to set up an appointment with your doctor. Hopefully, the specialist is able to set you up with a prescription, I’m sure that will really help the high stress levels coming from work. It sounds like you are making a lot of progress. Exciting about being back in touch with that old flame! It’s so nice having something to be excited about romantically. I hope for the best in that relationship for you!

    Tyler

  8. zelda Volunteer

    Nice to hear from you again, Jamie! I’m glad that you are taking care of you. Reaching out for help and taking things slow sound like good ideas. I hope that you can find some relief at the doctor’s office. I’ve heard that medicinal marijuana can help out with things like anxiety, pain, and PTSD, but you and your doctor will have to determine what will work best for you. As for looking into going back to therapy, that sounds like a great idea! I wish I had taken initiative like that when I was working at my old job. Instead, I let my issues go unattended and I didn’t ask for help. It didn’t end well.

    You have a lot going on in your life right now, but I believe that you will overcome. You’re doing what’s best for you, and you’re asking for help. Living with mental health issues can be really exhausting, frustrating, confusing, and a pain in the butt. Sometimes, a bad day can turn into a bad week or a bad month. But it’s important to recognize if we are struggling, how to ask for help, and what we can do to help ourselves.

    I hope you’re feeling better since this post. If you’re still feeling down, just remember that you will eventually feel better. Life is full of ups and downs, ebbs and flows. You will get through this rough patch. It just takes some time and a little bit of faith that the future will bring brighter days.

  9. rachelb098 Volunteer

    Hi Jamie,

    Thank you for your update!
    It must be frustrating and draining to be in an environment where you are treated so poorly, no one deserves that. After going through everything you have, coming up with solid next steps shows great strength and insight. Don’t hesitate to reach out again, we are always here for you.

    -Rachel

  10. dzreid Volunteer

    Hi there Jamie!
    It’s so good hearing all the good that’s happening! Sometimes as hard as changes can be, making the smallest change can be challenging, but can be rewarding. I’m so glad that some of the changes you made are working for you. You are worth every bit of the positive that’s happening! Your job sounds like it can be stressful. People sometimes can ben rude & often don’t care who is in ear shot. I would say do what you can to not allow it to get to you. Maybe when people are being rude, shower them with kindness. Have a great week!
    Dawn

  11. meg Volunteer

    Hi Jamie Marie,

    Thank you for updating us! I think it’s excellent news that you are working so hard for your mental health. Let us know how the appointment goes! I’m sorry that you have a job where people are cruel, it’s really unfair. I hope you have something to do after work, like yoga or maybe journaling to help ease your stress to work in tandem with the medical marijuana. Seeing your old therapist is a lovely idea! If for some reason they are unavailable, check out the counseling links we have in our Find Help tab. I think that taking it slow with your old partner is a good idea, keep checking in with one another on how you’re feeling. I proud of how far you’ve come. You’re doing wonderfully.
    -Meg

  12. Turnschaosintoart Day Captain

    Hey Jamie
    Glad to hear from you. I am glad to hear that you are seeking help for your mental health. I hope the doctor helps. I am curious to know how the medical marijuana works and if it helps you, so keep us updated. I also hope you can reconnect with your old therapist and that she can help. Did you have a good connection with her? It is good to see you talking to someone. I hope they treat you well. You deserve the best and should not settle. Looking forward to hearing from you again,

    Kristin

  13. aegardiner Volunteer

    Hi Jamie,

    I hope since your post you’ve been able to schedule an appointment with a specialist. It seems like medical appointments are getting a little easier to come by now with businesses opening again. Hopefully you’ve been able to reach out to your therapist as well. It sounds like you’re taking a lot of steps helping yourself heal and improve your overall physical and mental health. I’m happy you’re putting yourself first. I’m sorry to hear that work is so stressful though. I hope that you have ways to decompress from that at the end of the day. I know that the job market is rocky right now, but perhaps you could start to look around for other opportunities that may be out there. You don’t deserve to be yelled or cussed out by anyone. It is understandable that you want to keep your expectations low right now, but I’m hoping for the best for you. Take care!

  14. JWorks Volunteer

    Hey, Jamie!

    Thanks for updating us.
    It’s good to hear that you’re taking steps to help your mental state. Work sucks sometimes and it gets stressful. Also, an old flame sounds enticingly exciting! Good luck!

    -Jay

  15. Lex Volunteer

    Hi Jamie Marie,

    Thank you for coming back and updating us. I am glad that you made an appointment to talk with your doctor! I am sorry to hear that you are in a stressful work environment, unfortunately, there are so many people in this world who lack basic manners. I am so happy to hear that you are in touch with an old flame, how exciting! I hope everything works out!!

    Stay strong!
    – Lex

  16. nessa1695 Volunteer

    Hey Jamie,
    Thanks for updating us on your progress. A stressful job can be very detrimental to your own health, you could consider incorporating some type of self care routine you can do weekly or daily to help with unwinding. It’s great that your making the right moves to get your self in a better place mentally it shows a lot of growth on your part. You should be proud of your self and how far you’ve came. I will have to agree with my peers regarding your old flame, taking it slow and mentioning this to your therapist might be best, they can help you sort out your feelings better.
    Wishing you the best,
    Nessa

  17. haesol Volunteer

    Hi Jamie,

    Thank you for posting and updating again!
    I hope your appointment goes well and you can find a good treatment, it’s good to know you’re on your way of getting help!
    I’m sorry work has been stressful, people can be really mean and rude when they lack empathy.
    It sounds really exciting that you’ve been getting in touch with an old flame, I hope everything can work out in time if you feel like it’ll be good.
    You’ve been doing really well thus far!! Remember you can come back with an update any time if you want, we’re always here for you 🙂
    Best regards,
    sol.

  18. Marissa Day Captain

    Hey Jamie,

    Thanks for updating us. I’m glad you’ve gotten back in touch with your doctor! While your job may not be the best for your stress levels, it’s good that you recognize your triggers and are taking steps to alleviate some of that pressure. Also, it’s a really good idea to talk to your old therapist about your last relationship! Hopefully they can help you unpack everything you’ve been feeling. I definitely think it’s a good idea to talk to your therapist about your old flame, as well. They may be able to help you navigate your feelings and get them organized. I agree with what others have said, though – it might be best to take it slow.

    Please let us know if there’s anything we can do for you! We’re here to help. Stay strong!!
    Marissa

  19. Amysue43 Volunteer

    I’m glad you’ve decided to come back and update us on your situation! We are here for you and want to support you! It’s great that you’re reaching out and looking to make some more progress with your mental health. Seems like you are well aware of yourself and your limitations. You are reaching out for help and being cautious with this old flame you’ve mentioned. All good things. Perhaps journaling could help you organize your feelings and thoughts on the situation with the old flame. You could also share these entries with your therapist if you’d like – could help with determining the action plan.
    Stay strong <3

  20. Natalie M Day Captain

    Hi Jamie,

    Welcome back! Thanks for giving us another update. I am happy to hear from you. It is great to hear you have an appointment coming up with your doctor. It sounds like you are taking the right steps to heal. It sounds exciting that you have gotten back in touch with an old flame. I hope things go well, but take it slow! No need to rush! You are so strong!! Keep doing the things that you are doing. We are here for you!!

    -Natalie

  21. lizzi

    Hey Jamie,
    I’m sorry to hear that you’ve been struggling so much with your mental health lately, and it sounds like your job really isn’t helping that. I’m glad to hear that you’re going to see your doctor, and maybe see your therapist again. I think those are some really positive steps you can take to start feeling better and work through the issues surrounding your last relationship. It can be hard to get into a relationship again after getting out of such a difficult one, but it sounds exciting. It can be really fun to reconnect with someone from the past, especially if you have feelings for him. It’s okay to have lower expectations if that makes you feel more comfortable with it all. I hope everything goes well, and I’d love to hear an update!

  22. Solongago Volunteer

    Hi Jamie,

    I am sorry your job is so stressful. I hope that you can get what you need from the doctors/therapist to help you with that last relationship. I hope you can have fun with your old flame. Who knows? It could be the start of something wonderful, but it is certainly understandable to feel a little hesitant right now.

    Hoping you can find a blessing in today, take time out for you, see something wonder-full, and feel something good.

  23. Ashley Day Captain

    Hello, Jamie!

    I hope that your appointments with the doctor and the specialist go well. In a time where it feels like your mental health is going downhill, it’s wonderful to know that you continue to trust our community and turn to us for support. People who lack respect can say incredibly demeaning and heartless things; I wish that the world was full of more considerate and kind people. I believe it’s a great idea to reach out to your therapist to work on processing your previous relationship and to work towards healing. I encourage you to give yourself some time before beginning a new relationship.

    Ashley

  24. jcas120 Volunteer

    Hello Jamie Marie,

    It’s great to have you back with us! It sounds like you’re doing a great job taking care of yourself lately. It’s always the right decision to seek out improving our health. While it’s the right decision sometimes it can be a tough thing to do. I’m really proud that you told us you’ve decided to seek our your old therapist too! That’s a big decision and you are strong for making that. I hope you celebrate these recent accomplishments of yours. You deserve it!

  25. Dayana143 Volunteer

    Hi Jamie!
    It makes me happy that you have decided to go back to your doctor. I understand what you mean, and especially during quarantine our mental health can be triggered a little easier. I’m sorry you have to go through that at work that must be difficult, but if you do feel stressed I would recommend going to the bathroom or somewhere quiet for a few minutes to take in some air and relieve all of that stress. It makes me happy you’re taking these steps to better yourself!

  26. tbird830 Volunteer

    Hi Jamie,

    Thank you for the update. It sounds like you’ve got some good stuff happening and that you’re taking the time to take care of yourself and your mental health. Working in an environment where you’re being verbally abused or just dealing with angry people all the time is so taxing. Keep up with the self-care! We’re here for you!

    Tori

  27. rohina_kumar Volunteer

    Hello Jamie,

    Thank you so much for updating us about your current situation. I’m really sorry that your mental health isn’t the best at the moment and that you’re finding your job environment quite toxic. However, I’m glad that you’re seeking out for help. That’s a great sign of self-awareness and growth. Looking into seeing your old therapist would be a great idea too; it’s better to completely resolve your past trauma than resolve it partially. And it’s great that you’re in touch with an old flame, but I just want you to take things at your own pace, without feeling pressured. We’re all here for you if you want to talk again and we’re proud of the immense progress you’ve made so far. All the love.

  28. Edjay Volunteer

    Hi Jamie Marie,

    It’s great hearing from you. It’s good to hear that you are taking these steps for your health. It’s terrible that you have to deal with rude people at your job. Wanting to modulate your expectations about developing feelings for an old flame is completely understandable. Hopefully it goes well. Take care.

  29. brookeallnutt Volunteer

    Hi Jamie,

    Thank you for the update! I’m sorry that your mental health is going downhill and that your job is extremely stressful. But I’m happy to hear that you are looking into seeing your old therapist. I hope everything goes well with that! I wish the best for you, and we are always here if you need someone to talk to!

  30. Northlane1991 Volunteer

    Hey Jamie

    I am so sorry you are struggling with your mental health but i am glad you are getting in touch with your therapist. That can be very important. I am sorry about your job has been stressful. Make sure you take care of yourself and do some self care. We are truly here for you.

  31. musicislove

    Hi Jamie Marie,

    I’m sorry you’ve been struggling with your mental health so much lately but I’m so glad you’re getting in touch with your doctors and possibly your old therapist. Both can be really helpful, but I know you know that. I’m sorry your job has been so stressful, I hope that things start to get easier to handle there and I’m glad you’re enjoying talking to your old friend, it’s good not to have high expectations though. Better to be safe and take things slow. Thank you for updating us!

    Delaney

  32. rkr18 Volunteer

    Jaime-Marie

    It’s great hearing from you again. I am happy to hear you are continuing to work on yourself and working towards finding inner peace. I wish you well and best of wishes with your old flame. Please keep us updated.
    -Marie

  33. Alyssa Day Captain

    Hi Jamie Marie,
    It sounds like you are making a lot of progress in trying to move on from your ex which is great. I’m so happy that you are getting help. Hopefully talking to your old therapist about this will help you move on and help with new relationships to come.
    I would take things slow with your old fame. If you take things are your pace things will work better in the long run. It is never good to rush even if you have known them for a while. Thanks for updating us.
    -Alyssa

  34. Thomas Volunteer

    Hi Jamie Marie,

    Thank you for updating us. I am glad you are taking some proactive steps with seeing a doctor, a specialist, and maybe even your old therapist. That’s great! You’ve got this! I understand your reservations with this old friend, but I hope things go well. Stay strong!

    Thomas

  35. Breanna Volunteer

    Hi Jamie,

    Nice to hear from you again! It sounds like you have been taking some great steps to improve your overall health. I hope you find comfort and can relax and destress from work and thinking about your last relationship. If you decide to reach out to your therapist, I hope it goes well.

    Sending you love and support,
    Bre

  36. KatherineL Volunteer

    Hi Jamie Marie,

    Nice to hear from you! It’s good to see that you’re seeking mental health care that can help address the issues you’re facing right now. You should be proud that you have the cognizance to recognize when you need to reach out for help and actively working on it. I’m happy for you that you’ve found someone to connect with. Even if you don’t have high expectations, putting yourself out there and setting boundaries for new relationships is a great step toward healing. I wish you the best!

    KatherineL

  37. colton95 Volunteer

    I also work at a stressful job where people yell and cuss at me. What helps for me personally to overcome this stress is to vent about it with people who care for me and who will be understanding, including sharing about my experiences in here at avfti which you have been doing already. Please feel free to continue updating us. I hope that somehow your job will become less stressful and that things will go well with your old therapist and old flame. Stay strong and safe!

  38. Shari Volunteer

    Hi Jamie,

    Good to hear from you! I’m happy to hear you are reaching out for help through a specialist and an old therapist. This will be great for your mental health. I understand your job can be stressful, I’ve had similar experiences at my old job as well. Make sure to do something small for yourself at the end of the day! Maybe write a sentence or two in a journal, it helps de-stress. Be sure to process things one at a time, and try not to overwhelm yourself. I hope things go well with your old flame.

    Stay safe,
    Shari

  39. avahalliday Volunteer

    Hi Jamie,

    I’m glad to see you’re back with an update! It can sometimes be difficult to prioritize our own mental health, and it’s really great to hear that you are taking steps to take care of yourself. However, I am sorry to hear how stressful your job is- you don’t deserve to be treated poorly at work.

    If you do decide to speak with your therapist, I hope that they will be able to help you heal from your last relationship. We are always here to support you, too!

    Sending you love and support <3

    Ava

  40. loveishere2020 Volunteer

    Hey Jamie – glad to see you are back. It sounds like you have a lot of great things in order to help you manage stress. Awesome.
    Keep up posted, okay?

    Stay safe, Hollie

  41. Julia Mandel Day Captain

    Thank you for keeping us updated! It sounds like you are doing a lot of god things for your mental health which is awesome. I hope things go well with your old flame; just be patient with yourself while you heal from your past and know that you are a strong person. <3

  42. larakopp Volunteer

    Hi, Jamie:

    It’s good to hear from you! I’m sorry to hear that your job has been stressful and you have to deal with difficult people.
    I think it’s great that you’re taking steps to help process your last relationship and see a specialist to give you some mental health aid! I hope that your efforts pay off and you’re able to find some relief and able to move on the way you want to.

    I agree with Jess, and think it’s great that you’re setting those boundaries with yourself and give yourself the time to process how you feel.

    Sounds like you’re taking good care of yourself! Don’t forget to take some time and destress with some self-care, as mentioned below!

    Hope the next few days are less stressful!

    Thanks again for the update,
    Lara

  43. Jess Volunteer

    Thank you for updating us! I’m glad to hear that you are reaching out to your therapist and specialist for help. Sometimes, that is the hardest part of the healing process.

    I’m sorry that your job is so stressful. Having being yelled and cussed at as a daily part of your job is awful. As others have said, I want to really encourage you to make sure you’re making time for self-care when you get home. That could be something as simple as reading a book or making a nice meal or calling someone you love. Just make sure you’re taking time to do something you enjoy or something that brings you joy.

    As far as the old flame goes, I think you’re right in setting those boundaries. Make sure you move at your own pace and keep those boundaries when you need them. Lingering feelings can be confusing, but you deserve to take your time and process your feelings as they come.

    As always, we are always here for you. Thank you again for updating us. Stay strong and keep fighting. <3
    -jess

  44. music2799 Day Captain

    Hi Jamie,
    I’m glad that you’re seeing your doctor and specialist soon. It’s a wonderful way to take care of your health – physical, mental, etc. I hope you’ll be able to see your therapist and process your last relationship. As Roxie said, your health and well being are your top priorities.
    You don’t deserve to be treated so terribly at your job. April’s suggestion is great. It may help to have something to look forward to after work, such as calling a friend, self care, watching your favorite show, etc. You can look forward to these things, and you can relax after work.
    As for your old flame, take it at a pace that’s comfortable for you. It’s okay to have multiple feelings about something – to be cautious and excited all at once. Those feelings are valid.
    Thank you for updating us. Please write back if you need anything, and we’re here for you!!

  45. april-federico Volunteer

    Hi Jamie,

    Good to hear from you! What’s strange is that this June is “supposed” to be the month where exes come back into our lives, weird right? But nonetheless, it’s natural to have some lingering feelings towards your old flame. Good for you for setting boundaries with that person, too! That’s good that you’re seeing a specialist in order to get some additional help, as well as your old therapist. I’m sorry about what you’re going through at work. Maybe after work, each day do something to treat yourself, or maybe even after every week, if doable! Remember: it’s important to have some form of self-care. It doesn’t have to be a bubble bath or facial, but maybe journaling or talking it out with a friend.

    Keep us updated!

    April

  46. Bluebell13 Volunteer

    Dear Jamie,
    It’s good to hear from you again. It sounds like you are putting a plan in place to take care of yourself; that is wonderful! Taking care of yourself is top priority.
    Ugh! No one deserves to be yelled and cussed at as part of their job:(
    Sending you love and strength,
    Roxie

  47. Erin O'Callaghan Day Captain

    Thank you for coming back to share with us. I’m glad that you are reaching out and taking care of your mental health needs-you deserve to be supported. I am so sorry people are being rude to you at your job-you don’t deserve that. I think being cautiously optimistic is good, but you can allow yourself to be excited! I know that’s hard for me to do as a survivor myself. Let us know how else we can help you.

    Erin