Behind me and underneath me

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I’m 60 years old never been married no kids no boyfriends and I have three dogs I just bought a house in February of 2019 I love being at home with my dogs and working on furniture that I fix up and sell on Marketplace. The time this all happens I had only been in my house a year. I had six dogs one of which was male and one of his testicles to not drop so he had some kind of a mass and is belly which made him drink and eat all day long I had two Rottweiler Shepherd Center Chow Shar-Pei and a chihuahua I inherited from my mother. I’m the only one that ever touched my dogs besides their vet and they were not very friendly I never worried about anyone coming in my backyard. The week of end of Super Bowl 2020 I went to the bar two blocks from my house had one drink and came home. I was working at a place I’d been out for five years and every Super Bowl I always do the squares at $5 a piece so the total was $500. I one $250 I still have that cash in my purse. Remember going to work on Monday pain everybody what they won some reason I wasn’t feeling very good but I did stay until I got off work at 2. Not sure what I did the rest of the day except I know I had a couple drinks and smoked a joint. I went to bed and the next thing I remember is someone at the end of my bed with their hands on my legs saying something about how hairy they were. I never saw anyone nor did I feel anything. I remember I kept waking up and spitting stuff into a cup and going to my refrigerator and taking out a bottle of water and drinking almost all the water and the rest I gave to my little Chihuahua who is on the side of my bed in his bed had no idea what day it was I kind of was but I did wake up every morning at 5 a.m. to call my boss and tell him I was sick. The only thing I remember after that is I just kept getting up and spitting this white stuff into this cup and drinking water. When I finally woke up 2 and 1/2 days later it was Thursday. I got out of bed went outside to check on my dogs and sure enough my big boy was dying none of my dogs have water or food I felt so sick I took care of them and then laid in bed and kept coughing and spitting and drinking water. I was not sure what was going on I walked around the house looked four things that were weird and I noticed my hair dryer to not work I had a mirror that I had taken off my wall the day before and it had white stuff all over it I also noticed one of my Chinese was backwards and that the caulking around my kitchen sink was different and the faucet wouldn’t move back and forth as easily as it used to. Buy tennis shoes have been washed and I still have the same outfit on I had on Monday evening. When I finally took off my clothes I realized I have the pattern of the mattress on both my thighs bright red and I took a couple of pictures. That’s when I realized something really weird happened with somebody was in my house and Drug me. By then I was still really confused and was not sure what happened I couldn’t shower I was scared I tried to sleep in my truck I just couldn’t. I took off my sheets and put a black light on to it and it lit up like Christmas not knowing what that was I still didn’t understand what had happened. I wasn’t sure how I really felt but I don’t know if I had been sexually abused or not. All I really knew was I must have laid face down bent over on my bed for days so what could they have done for two and a half days I don’t know. For the next few weeks and to this day I hear people underneath my bed and I feel them like they’re pushing on the bottom of my bed I hear them walking around. So all I could think of was it had to be somebody either next door or behind me who’s going to dig a tunnel from their house to my house would have to be somebody very close. And the person or people that I suspected is right behind me and they could see right from their shed over into my backyard underneath my window so I was scared. 3 weeks after this all happened I was driving home from work and I came to a four-way stop down by my house and as I turned the corner this black guy and a black car rolled down his window stuck his head out and blew me a kiss. I thought what the hell who would do that come to find out the car that he was driving is in the driveway with the people who live behind me so now I know but what can I do no proof I do have a stuff I kept spitting in My Cup but how crazy are people going to think I am and the cops if somebody’s got a tunnel under my house is somehow getting in to write me. Friend of mine came over went up in my attic and said that he saw a blanket up there but it didn’t look like anybody had been up there in years so I sealed that opening with caulking so no one could get in or out. Another year had passed and sure enough a week before the Super Bowl on New Year’s weekend he did it again or they did it again. This time it was just overnight all I remember is going to bed and having a hard time going to sleep when I finally did fall asleep I was awoken by something and I turned over and put my hand on some man’s knee and my heart sunk can I see it and I was out again next thing I remember was waking up walking him to the door I guess cuz when I went back to my bedroom there was a Mexican man sitting on my bed asking if he left yet and I told him yes. This time I saw a face very handsome Mexican man sitting on the side of my bed then I was out again and didn’t wake up till the following morning. Still not sure what it happened I was feeling really good that day I don’t know why. To this day I still hear and feel someone under my bed I don’t know what to do. Please someone tell me what I should do I can’t live like this. I recently quit my job of 5 years and I’m scared to get another job the fear that he would come in my house again and if you can do this to me what would you do to my dogs.


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63 comments

  1. dzreid Volunteer

    Hello,
    It takes a lot of courage & strength to share, That’s what I see in you, a lot of strength & courage, so thanks for sharing! I hope by reading all the comments, you will now know you’re not alone. While none of this was your fault, & you done nothing to be abused, I believe it’s only normal to have this fear especially after all you been through. I can see how this would be a struggle for you. Take some deep breaths, & take things day by day. Have you considered seeking help from a professional like a therapist? I wish you the best, & please come back any time & share!
    Dawn

  2. CSUN Student1 Volunteer

    Hello,
    Thank you for taking the time and share your story with us and I am sorry that happened to you since you live alone, it must of been terrifying and not knowing what will happen. Just like another volunteer has mentioned, getting security cameras around the house is very useful and it usually prevents people from breaking in when they see there are security systems surrounding the house. We do have great resources on our website that can be beneficial to you and also we are always here for support whenever you need us.
    Thank You

  3. Stark21 Volunteer

    HI 1122rrtt,
    Thank you so much for sharing and trusting us with your story. First I would like to say I cannot imagine how you must feel in your own home. None of this is your fault and you should have never had to experience this. It’s completely understandable to feel the way you are feeling since having experienced this. Not being able to piece together days you were feeling ill that were possibly set up is upsetting and scary. Your feelings and actions are valid. I do impress that security cameras and added on home security systems are a strong and possible solution. I also would recommend looking under the Find Help tab to discuss with someone your feelings and experiences. Stay strong. We are here for you. Looking forward to another update.
    -R

  4. ericasarkisyan Volunteer

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. Im so sorry for all that you went through. That must’ve been such a scary feeling especially since you live alone. I recommend getting security cameras that film 24 hours a day so you can see any activity that is happening in your house. I hope you and your dogs are safe now and that you aren’t hearing those noises anymore. If anything else happens please let us know.

    Take care,
    Erica

  5. Ramon Moran Volunteer

    Hello 1122rrtt,
    I am sorry that you have gone through these many experiences, this must be very scary for you and your dogs. Nothing that has happened to you is your fault. We believe you with everything that you are saying and hope that it will not happen again. I would recommend security cameras or possibly living with a family member because these events should not be happening. You are strong fir coming out with your story and sharing these instances. Hope you and your dogs stay safe, and hope it does not happen again. You are not alone, you have us, and if you ever feel like talking feel free to come back. If you need further help there is a help tab above and you can text ‘VOICE’ to 741 741 for further help. Stay strong and stay well. -Ramon

  6. Angela Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,
    Thank you for sharing and trusting us with this. I am so sorry that you had to experience something scary like this especially in your own home. I really hope you get some sort of security installed for future safety, like cameras and extra locks. Also, having a friend check up on you would be a great idea too. Take a look at the “find help” tab, you may find something there that can help. Please take care and stay strong!

  7. Araceli1090 Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    I am sorry to hear that you are going through such a terrifying experience. I would recommend checking out our help tab? perhaps there might be some helpful resources.

    we are here for you. keep fighting ! you are such a strong individual.

  8. Tokyo_Kaneki Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt, I am so sorry that you had tp experience this. It must have been so scary to be in a situation like that. Have you tried filing a report with the police? I would mention how your house was broken into. When we live somewhere, we know every inch and crevice of our home, so the fact that you knew that some things were not in their right place can be an important factor to mention if you wanted to file a police report. I would also suggest putting up cameras. The brand “ring” offers doorbell cameras and other security cameras and lights as well for prices a bit on the lower side (they have different plans). There is also a ‘Get Help’ tab with many resources and if there is ever a time where you wanted to speak with someone, feel free to text ‘VOICE’ to 741 741. Again, I am so sorry that this is happening to you but please know we are here for you. Please stay safe and update us, sending you lots of love and support.
    – J

  9. snandi2 Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    I’m so sorry that you’re going through this unsettling and scary experience. I also think that security cameras would be a great way for you to fully understand what’s happening. Since they’re constantly recording, you would be able to see what’s happening in your house when you fall unconscious or when you’re not sure what’s happening around you. Please know that all of us at AVFTI are here for you, and our “Find Help” tab has some resources that you might find useful. Additionally, if you feel like you need to talk to someone, you can text VOICE to 741-741, where a trained individual will respond to you and offer words of advice and comfort. Stay safe, and we’d be happy to read any updates you have for us!

  10. musicislove

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    Thank you so much for trusting us with your experience, I can’t even imagine how scary that all has been. You deserve to feel safe at home and to have your dogs safe, I’m sorry that’s not the case right now. I agree with others that getting security cameras could be a really good idea as well as reaching out to someone you trust. We’re also always here and we have great resources under our Find Help tab if you need further assistance. Please come back any time.

    Delaney

  11. VolunteerNem Volunteer

    Hello 1122rrtt,
    I am sorry that you have to go through something this scary and terrifying. I feel like it is unsafe for you to be in that location without any security or cameras. I think your safety is the main priority. I suggest also to have a friend help you out or share with them what happened. If there is anything else you need help with let us know asap, we are here to help and thanks for sharing.

  12. SarahLove Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    I am so sorry to hear you had to go through such an unsettling situation. It is not fair you and your dogs feel uncomfortable in your own new home. I noticed my colleagues mentioned having some safety features installed. That’s a great idea. I know this is not what you imagined when buying a new home, but maybe it will give you some peace of mind. I encourage you to check out our “help” tab at the top of our homepage. You’ll find many amazing resources.

    Thank you for your continuous trust.
    We are here with no judgment.

    Stay safe,
    SarahLove

  13. Starling Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,
    Thank you for sharing your story with us. I’m sorry that you are going through this. You don’t deserve to go through this, and it’s not your fault. We believe you and you are safe here. It must be awful to not feel safe in your own home. It might be a good idea to install security cameras in and around your home. If you’re comfortable with it, I would definitely suggest talking to a professional about what happened. A counselor could be helpful to work through your emotions about it. If you ever need anything, let us know. We’re always here for you.

  14. Lusine05 Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,
    Thank you for sharing your story with us. What you describe is very scary, and we absolutely believe you. You should have a right to feel safe in your own house. I understand that moving is not always a possible solution, so maybe a police officer could help. If you do not feel comfortable reporting that, perhaps you could ask your friend to do it.
    Stay strong and safe,
    -L

  15. casitasbonitas Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt, Thank you for sharing with us. I can’t imagine what it must feel like to feel unsafe in your own home. I feel like you should report it! I feel like you should talk to someone about this so you can maybe have some company with you at night, someone you trust of course. Keep us updated and stay strong!

  16. betterdays1 Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,
    Thank you for writing us. I’m so sorry you are going through this. Feeling unsafe at one’s own home must be very unpleasing. You should report this with the police, maybe they’ll know what you could do. I would also suggest counselling because this seems like an awful situation to be in. I hope it all gets fixed and you can find a safer space. Keep us updated!
    -V.

  17. heretohelp101 Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,
    Thanks for sharing all of this with us,
    there’s so much that has gone on and I totally understand why you feel scared and unsafe.
    I think you should look into staying at a new place and new neighborhood, and/or try to definitely get some security cameras or extra locks on your windows, bedroom door, etc. I hope that that will bring you some type of comfort and peace.
    Please come back to update us on everything,
    Hoping for the best,
    -Jan

  18. Pamela Z Volunteer

    Hello 1122rrtt
    Thank you for trusting us with your story, I am so sorry you had to go through this. We are here for you and support you. This is a scary situation, you should look into security cameras or security alarms. I am sorry that you do not feel safe in your own home, just know that you are strong and are not alone.

    Pamela

  19. CarmenR Volunteer

    Hi there,

    I am so sorry that this is happening, and that you went through this. Is there somewhere else you could stay for a while? Or is there a friend that could come stay with you? Please look to the “Find Help” tab at the top of this website. It may help you locate resources within your area. If therapy is an option for you, it can be really helpful to have someone you trust and that you can work through what has been happening with. We are here for you.

    Carmen

  20. slozoya1120 Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    It sounds like you have been going through a lot. I am sorry that this is happening to you, and you have not figured out what exactly is going on yet. Maybe you can stay with a relative or friend while you start to feel better or feel in control again. There are links in the “Find help” tab here on the site, please feel free to use them if you are comfortable doing so. I do hope you start feeling better soon, and that you find your peace again. Take care of yourself.

    -Sam

  21. leoreslavick Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,
    I cannot imagine the pain that you went through the night of New Year’s eve and what you continue to go through after the fact. My heart goes out to you and I am so so sorry for what happened to you. I know communities like AVFTI or other ones like it are very helpful to just have a community or outlet to share your story and how you are feeling. I would advise you to maybe see a therapist if you aren’t going to one already. The trauma and PTSD from that experience would be unbearable for anyone to handle, especially if you think that there is a chance they may do it a third time. I also would advise you to look on our website under the find help tab as we have a lot of resources available to help you.

  22. iap66325 Volunteer

    Hello 1122rrtt,

    Thank you for sharing your story, I apologize what your are being put through right now. I would advise you to actually go onto the websites Find Help tab and double check in case you are facing someone who falls along the sex offender registry for your own safety. Also, to report it if you are aware of who is involved or have an idea from your recent experiences. That way you are no longer at risk. I hope that nothing keeps you from doing so and that everything and the police get to the bottom of it especially if you hold onto any form of evidence like you mentioned in your story. Please try to remain safe and do not pursue anything risky by yourself. Keep us updated, I hope to hear from you soon on any news!

  23. lmc83823 Volunteer

    Hi1122rrtt,
    I am sorry that you’ve been experiencing this unsettling situation. It certainly sounds like a very terrifying situation and I am sorry you feel unsafe in your home. I would recommend checking out the “Find Help” tab above to find some resources that could better assist you. In the meantime, possibly moving with someone or staying at another place may help you feel more secure.
    Sending you strength and love,
    Luna

  24. odishoe Volunteer

    Hi r1122rrtt, thank you for coming here and sharing your story with us. I’m sorry you went through that, it must of felt scary but know that you are a strong person and can get through it just like you have for the past 60 years. wish you the best and always lift up your head and don’t look back even though it will be hard.

  25. Mary Ella Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    Thank you for sharing your experience with us. I am sorry that you feel unsafe in your own home – no one deserves that. This is a very scary and traumatizing thing for someone to go through, and a lot of people have mentioned this already but it might help to have extra security features at home. It’s unfair to have to take extra precautions in your own home where you’re supposed to feel safe. I do recommend contacting law enforcement, especially if you feel like someone is still intruding into your home. It might also help to have your phone close to you if you have to call for emergency, as well. Lastly, I also would highly encourage you to talk to someone (a counselor or a therapist) who’d be able to address these events and your fears. Feel free to update us again, and if you want someone to talk to immediately, text VOICE to 741-741. I’m sending you a lot of support, and please stay safe!

  26. jenniferb Volunteer

    Hello 1122rrtt,
    Thank you for sharing your story with us. I am so sorry to hear that you are not feeling safe in your own home. No one should ever have to experience this. Your current situation sounds very scary. As others have mentioned in their replies, maybe it could be helpful to install a security system or cameras. Or maybe speaking to someone about this could be helpful as well to help with the fear that you have been feeling. We have a “Find Help” tab filled with resources that could be useful.
    Please keep us updated. I am sending you lots of support, stay safe.

  27. Amysue43 Volunteer

    Firstly, thank you for sharing! I’m so sorry you are experiencing this. This is very scary. I would encourage you to text VOICE to 741-741 or check out our Find Help tab when you are feeling uneasy about your living environment. We are here to support you!
    Stay strong <3

  28. t3nnis_player18 Volunteer

    Hey 1122rrtt,
    Thank you fro sharing your very traumatic and terrifying story with us. My heart is breaking for you I am so sorry this happened and the fact that you dont even know what exactly happened is the worst of it all. You are so incredibly strong for handling this by yourself for so long and not knowing what has happened to you. I definitely suggest getting extra locks and cameras put up around your house so this is less likely to happen again. Im sorry you are having to go through all this anxiety and fear of if its going to happen again and that you will most likely have to take measures to prevent it from happening again. Thats not your job. You shouldnt have to constantly worry about yours or your dogs safety. None of this was your fault and you are doing the very best you can with the situation. WE are here for you and anything you may need please keep us updated on how things are going. Stay strong!

  29. Karenv12 Volunteer

    Hello 1122rrtt,

    I would like to start off by saying thank you for sharing your story with us, I know it must not have been easy to do. You are very strong for all you have endured, and I want you to know that we believe you and we are here for you for anything that you need. I think maybe adding extra security to your home would help ease your worry, maybe adding an alarm system and cameras all around your house might be beneficial. Please keep us updated.
    Sending you lots of strength and love,
    Karen

  30. 123Ahmet Volunteer

    Hello 1122rrtt,

    Thank you very much for sharing your story with us, it really means a lot to us. I believe that the RING door camera is a great way to keep track of who is around your house, it also comes with additional functions and features if you want to spend a little more money. I hope you stay strong, even though this is a serious challenge and issue I know that a camera system and support system can help you get through this, also if the ring system does not do too much you can contact law enforcement and show the videos caught on your ring camera. Please if you need additional resources feel free to go into the “Find Help” tab above.

    -Ahmet

  31. KevionS. Volunteer

    Hello 1122rrtt,
    Thank you for having the courage and strength to share your story with us. I would recommend purchasing a Blink security system for your house. The Blink security system is both an outdoor and indoor security. It is available at Best Buy for $249 and you can also have them come out to set it up for you.

    Best,
    KevionS.

  32. CSUN Volunteer A.M Volunteer

    Hello 1122rrtt,
    Thank you for trusting us with sharing your story , the situation you described sounds very scary and creepy and whatever happened to you wasn’t your fault, home is a safe place and your safety is important ,Have you ever consider buying cameras and installing them by the main entrances and even inside your bedroom ? I think cameras would be the best idea for your safety .
    or if you need additional help under the Find Help tab you can always seek help and speak with someone professional.They can help you to fight with the fear and anxiety. Please stay strong and reach out to us if you need something also please keep updating us we would like to hear from you .
    best
    A.M

  33. eagle206 Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    Thank you for coming here to share your story. It takes a lot of courage to share, and we are all here to support you! I’m so sorry to hear that people have been able to get into your house while you are asleep. We do have a couple of resources here: https://www.avoicefortheinnocent.org/help/ if you feel like someone is breaking and entering maybe it’s worth mentioning to the police so they can keep an eye out in your neighborhood. Speaking to someone else locally might help things stop. It’s really scary to not know if you are safe in your home and you deserve to feel safe. You could also get a guard dog and have it sleep in your room with you, that might help you feel safe. Or maybe have a friend stay over sometimes and look out for you!

    Stay strong,
    T

  34. Marissa Day Captain

    Hello 1122rrtt,

    Thanks for sharing your story with us. What you described sounds so scary! I agree with what others have said – maybe some secret cameras could be helpful! Or a security system? I really hope you get to the bottom of this soon. Would it be possible for you to move? I know that’s not simple but it could help to bring you peace of mind. Please let us know if there’s anything we can do to help. We are here for you!

    Marissa

  35. pinksky92 Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    Thank you for sharing your story. What you described sounds very scary. I can’t even imagine how it must feel to not feel 100% safe in your home and being paranoid that someone has been sneaking around. It could be helpful to install secret cameras? That way you could have proof and be sure about what has been going on. This is just one idea though. I know if it were me I would want to know.

    As other volunteers have mentioned, we have some great resources available on our “Find Help” page. Don’t hesitate to reach out if you would like to share more.

    I hope you can stay safe.

    Take care ~

  36. brookeallnutt Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    Thank you so much for trusting us with your story. This sounds like such a scary situation, and I completely understand your feelings of fear. I hope you have found some of the resources that others have listed below to be helpful. Please let us know if we can do anything else to help. I want to reiterate that we are always here for you, so please come back and share anytime. I hope you and your dogs stay safe!

  37. haesol Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    Thank you for sharing. I’m so sorry you’ve been going through these scary experiences, I can’t imagine how much it’s been taking a toll on you. Whatever happened, it wasn’t your fault, and we believe you. Your safety is the main priority, so maybe installing some surveillance cams on your house can give you some sort of security. In the Find Help tab you can find a lot of resources that can hopefully help you out as well. Let us know if there’s anything else we can do.
    Stay safe.

  38. Ana Espiritu Volunteer

    Hello1122rrtt,

    Thank you for sharing and trusting us with your story. I know that the traumatizing experience you have gone through was really tough and scary, but it took a lot to share with us. Know what happen to you wasn’t your fault and that having to live in fear can take a lot from you to recover. Have you thought of talking to a therapist? Have you told any recent family member or friend about this experience? I know it takes a lot to share because of others being judgemental, but having the support of a loved one can help as well. Reaching out can be the best way to heal and to get the help you are looking for. I encourage you to go to our website at AVFTI to find our help tab button that can help you with some amazing resources that can be -beneficial. You can also text VOICE 741-741. Know that you are important to us and that you matter to us, please follow back. We always welcome you to share and we are here to listen. Stay strong!

    Sending Support and Love,
    Ana

  39. lizzi

    Hi 1122rrtt,
    I’m so sorry for the scary experiences you had with someone in your house. I can imagine it is frightening to not know how someone is getting in and what they’ve done to you while you were out. Whatever happened, it was not your fault. I’m glad that you’re physically okay. You’re not crazy, and I would strongly recommend reaching out to a therapist to talk through what you’ve experienced and maybe be able to make more sense of it. You deserve to feel safe in your home and not be worried about someone breaking in and assaulting you.

  40. jcas120 Volunteer

    Hello 1122rrtt,

    Thank you so much for coming here and being so brave with us. It takes a lot of courage to share your story.

    I am so sorry to hear about what has been happening to you. This all sounds so scary. I hope you know that we believe you and are here to support you any way we can. I would also like to let you know that we have a great resources page with a lot of information available: https://www.avoicefortheinnocent.org/help/

    I hope that you figure out what has been going on soon and you can feel safe and secure again. We are here for you!

  41. DY17654 Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    I am glad you shared your story with us. It must be extremely frightening to not know what happened to you and what to constantly be in a state of anxiousness. I think getting some clarity into what is going and your health is number 1: maybe starting with some basic things like home protection and security system; talking to someone you might be close to or seeing someone that can help you with this situation; we also have a Find Help tab that may be a good option. We are here for you and I hope things progress for you in a positive direction. We look forward to hearing any update you have for us.

    Dustin

  42. pfuentes Volunteer

    Hey 1122rrtt,

    I’m so sorry to hear this happened to you. I can’t imagine how difficult it must be to feel uncertainty about what happened to you and have to deal with it on your own. Just know that we are here for you! You are not alone! Please don’t hesitate to reach out if you need to. You can also text VOICE 741-741 or check out the help tab on the website if you need further assistance. Please take care!

    pfuentes

  43. ajklessig Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,
    Thank you for sharing your story with us. I cannot imagine how scary it must be to not feel safe in your own home. You do not deserve to go through any of this, and none of it was your fault. It is also normal and okay to not know how to identify what happened or what to call it.
    I think you should prioritize your safety first! What will make you feel more comfortable living at home? Do you think moving, adding a security system (in addition to your dogs), or finding a trustworthy roommate would help? Another option might be to seek out a therapist to help you process through some of this and decide what is best for you. Also, if you feel like you are actively in danger, you can always call 911. I don’t want you to feel like you are alone in this situation. We are here to support you in any way that we can.

  44. chompyapple1 Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    Thank you so much for sharing your story us. I’m so sorry you had to go through and experience this. You can text VOICE to 741 741 and people will be able to talk you and be there. Our “Find Help” tab also has many resources that will be of use to you. We are always here and we will always listen to you. Take care.

  45. AlisonDKaufman

    Hello:

    I am so sorry you are experiencing such horror, I cannot even begin to imagine what you are dealing with right now. You deserve to feel safe in your own home and I hope you find ways to secure things to help ease your mind. Please remember if you ever need help 911, text VOICE to 741-741 or when you are ready to speak to someone who is able to support you we have a rich resource page available to you as well.

    I encourage to you continue visiting and sharing on the site, this IS a safe place for you to share what you are experiencing.
    Ali

  46. jyoung Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    Thank you for trusting the AVFTI community enough to share your story. I’m so sorry this happened to you; please know none of it was your fault. You have every right to feel safe and secure within your own home, and I’m so sorry you don’t. If you are ever in need of immediate help, you can always text VOICE to 741-741; this will connect you with someone right away. Also, if you’d like, you can check out the “Find Help” tab located on our website; it contains resources that might be able to assist you further. Please don’t hesitate to reach out! We are all here for you!

    Best,
    Jasmine

  47. lilyk Volunteer

    Hey 1122rrtt,

    Thank you so much for sharing and trusting us with what’s going on. I’m so sorry this happened. It sounds like it’s really scary, and I’m sorry you have to experience this. If you text VOICE to 741 741, it will connect you to a crisis text line, and they’ll be able to talk with you about what’s going on. If you’d like to, the “Find Help” tab on the website has many more hotlines and resources that might be able to help. You are always welcome here with AVFTI.

  48. Caitlin Volunteer

    Thank you for sharing. This is so scary and uncertain. You should absolutely feel safe in your house and I am so sorry you do not!

    So many have shared good advice so I will say we are here to support you and we believe you!

    You deserve to be supported and helped through this so see if you can really get to what it is you want to see happen next. It could be reaching out for more help, calling the police, getting a therapist, getting a security system, relocating, moving where your bed is, and/or so many other things. I hope you start to find some answers on how you should move forward.

    -Caitlin

  49. KatherineL Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    I am glad you found us and shared your story. That sounds terrifying, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. None of this is your fault. You deserve to feel safe in your home. What do you think could be done that would help you to feel safe? We are here for you anything you want to share, but we also have additional resources under the Find Help tab if you want to speak with someone professionally about what you went through. It may help you to begin healing.

    KatherineL

  50. Alyssa Day Captain

    Hi 1122rrtt,
    I’m so sorry that this happened. This is not your fault nor didn’t you deserve this. You deserve to feel safe in your house. Have you thought about telling the police? They might be able to help find out who went into your house and can keep you safe. If you don’t feel safe telling the police, do you have a friend or someone you trust that you can tell? I’m so sorry that this is happening. We are always here for you. Continue to stay strong. If you need anything you can always write back. Thank you for trusting and sharing your story with AVFTI.
    -Alyssa

  51. music2799 Day Captain

    Hi 1122rrtt,
    What you’re going through sounds terrifying, and you don’t deserve to feel unsafe in your own home. I echo the other volunteers; do you have a friend or family member you can stay with, or are there any shelters in your area where you can stay for some time? Or would it be possible for someone to stay with you? I think being around someone you trust could help you feel safer. I hope these people stop what they’re doing, and I hope you’ll be and feel safe soon.
    Thank you for sharing this with us. Please write back whenever you need anything; we’re here to support you in any way we can. We believe you, and we want the best for you.

  52. sarahsays Volunteer

    Hey 1122rrt,

    I’m glad you found our site and decided to share here. I cannot even imagine the fear and heaviness you must be feeling with all of what you described above. We are on your side here and fully believe you.

    From your story, if I’m understanding correctly, this sounds like it is still actively happening. That being said, I think it’s important to prioritize your safety. Is there anywhere you can stay, or can your friend stay with you temporarily to try and help investigate the situation? Could you possibly get security cameras in your house, or, is there anyone in your community you can trust to keep an eye on your place and check in on you and the dogs?

    Stay strong. You are going to get through this and you do not have to do it alone. There are a lot of resources under our Find Help tab and it is ok to reach out and ask for back up on this.

  53. oscarl2 Volunteer

    Hello 1122rrt,
    Thank you for sharing your story. Just know that what has happened to you is not your fault. I know it must seem hard to know what is going on but we are here to help you with that. You can text “VOICE” to 741 741 or you can use the “find help” tab on our website for more help. I hope you find the answers you are looking for and I wish you the best of luck on your path to healing.
    Best wishes,
    oscarl2

  54. karinakalke Volunteer

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    Thank you for sharing with us. I know what it’s like to not feel safe in your own home, and I am so sorry you’re experiencing that. Is there any way you can move out, even temporarily? There are some resources under the “Find Help” tab that may be helpful. I hope that you are able to find a sense of safety soon.

    Sending love and support,
    Karina

  55. delvecchis1 Volunteer

    I am so sorry to hear this happened to you. I would be incredibly terrified as well. You are experiencing very normal symptoms of trauma and I am sending so much love and healing your way.

    There is a find help tab on the web site, you can try some of those resources. You absolutely should feel completely justified in going to the police, although I know and understand that is a scary and intimidating thought. Is there someone that could go with you for support? You could also call them and ask them to come to your home if it would make you feel more comfortable to be in your own space.

    If you can find a support group, online or in person, or a therapist to speak to that would be my next suggestion.

    You can begin healing from this. You have the right to a happy life free of fear. The things you hear and feel and think are around you, its all fear manifesting itself. It can feel so real and I don’t think anyone should have to deal with that alone.

    Please come back and update us, and always come back for support. We are here for you.

  56. Jiggy Volunteer

    Hey 1122rrtt,
    I’m sorry you are not able to feel safe in your own house, must be scary. It would be best for you to move, living with a friend is the best option. There are plenty of resources available on this website, maybe there are resources about shelters in your area so you can have a place that is safe. To access the resource you have to click on the “Find Help” tab and browse the various resources. You should also focus on your mental health as it is not good to bottle up your emotions or to downplay what happened to you.
    Hope for the best!

  57. alexiswilliams

    1122rrtt,

    Thank you for sharing, I can see how this would be extremely unsettling. Is it at all possible for you to relocate? You deserve to feel safe in your own home. Also, all of your feelings and concerns are valid, so it’s best to share your story with people you trust, and make them aware than to keep quiet! I hope that you are able to feel safe soon!

    Love,
    Lex

  58. mikaylaanne11 Volunteer

    Hey there 1122rrtt,

    Thank you for sharing your story with us. It’s terrifying to not feel safe in your own home, and it’s terrible that this is happening to you. I think that you did the right thing in asking a friend to help you. Have you been able to consider staying with a friend or moving to a different home? Even if you can just be out of your house for a while, it might deter these people who are bothering you. We believe you and are always here if you need to talk. Sending some positivity your way!

  59. Bluebell13 Volunteer

    Dear 1122rrtt,
    Thank you for sharing your story with us. How scary to not feel safe in your own home! It sounds like you have some supportive friends who also want you to feel safe. Would you be able to stay with one of them for a bit or have them stay with you? Others have mentioned our resources and I want to point out that they are varried to accomodate the fact that everyone heals differently. I hope that you are able to find something that is useful to you. Please feel free to write any time and let us know if we can help in any way.
    Sending you love and strength,
    Roxie

  60. coachdiggs Volunteer

    Hello 1122rrtt,
    I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your story. I am sorry that you had to go through all of that. The fear that somebody was in your house can be very terrible and scary. You did not deserve for somebody to be in your privacy. Just know you have somebody to talk. If you ever need help ASAP I would say go to the “Find Help” tab and text the crisis text line, VOICE to 741 741. Lastly, thank you again for sharing your story with everybody.

  61. Erin O'Callaghan Day Captain

    I am so sorry this happened, it sounds very frightening. Is there someone else you could stay with for awhile, a friend? You can also check our “Find Help” tab and text the crisis text line, VOICE to 741 741.

    Erin

  62. candyappleb Day Captain

    Hi 1122rrtt,

    I am so sorry that you had to endure this experience. I completely understand the fear that someone may be inside your home. You did not deserve to have your privacy violated that way. I would encourage you to browse through our resource section. There are many wonderful organizations that may be local and can provide different levels of support. Please feel free to share here as much as you need to. We are here for you, we believe you, and we will support you to the best of our abilities. Here is the direct link to our resource section: https://www.avoicefortheinnocent.org/help/

    All the best,
    Becca

  63. zelda Day Captain

    Thanks for sharing your story, 1122.

    Your experiences definitely sound scary, and it’s understandable to have a hard time sleeping after feeling you may have been assaulted. When we do not have all the answers to a trauma, it can be even harder to reach out for help.

    If I could give you any advice, I’d recommend seeing a trauma counselor, especially someone with years of training and experience. The more seniority, the more likelihood of them knowing what to do, and how to help you best.

    In my lifetime, I have also experienced terrifying situations that I didn’t quite know how to label or identify. What I’ve learned in my own therapy is that we can’t always pinpoint what we experienced, and that it’s less about pinpointing, and more about feeling.

    How did the situation make you feel, and then process those feelings in order to heal.

    That’s been my personal experience in counseling, but everyone will have a different experience.

    I am really sorry you went through these situations. If I were you, I would want answers too.

    Take care, 1122. AVFTI hears you, and we’re with you. Reach out again anytime.