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I was trafficked by my dad. That’s the second time I’ve said those words. I don’t tell people. I usually just say I was sexually abused or I think I may have been trafficked but I’ve excepted it. I just want to be loved. I feel that my life is useless. Why am I here I wish I could just die. I want to die. I’ve spent my whole life just waiting to die and that kind of sucks. Friends don’t stay friends because I’m too broken and that’s too much for them to handle but I can’t just erease all the pain and all the ways my past effects me. Like that’s normally but people act like because my past is bad if I dwell on it or use it as a reason why im struggling now that im playing the victim. But im not. It’s facts. People who have good backgrounds can explain how that’s how they became who they are why can’t that apply to ppl with bad backgrounds. In a lot of ways I believe that im right and no one else gets it. It would be nice to have a day when I don’t feel like dying. I had several good months in a medicine but it caused me to gain 30 lbs so I had to quite it. I guess as I’m writing this I’m hopefully of finding another pill that works. I’ve tried a lot though and they haven’t but hopefully I will find one with manageable side effects 


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  1. adrian Volunteer

    Hey, hopeless-

    You are strong for saying those words. Once, twice, three times or even never again- you are strong each time. Every day you wake up and choose to live is a courageous day for you. Coming here and writing how you feel about your life is brave. It’s productive that you recognize that your past does have an affect on how you live your life now. It sounds like you’re in search of a new way to live, though, and that can be difficult when you have trauma in your past. Keep up your hope to find something that works for you- there are so many different ways to live a life, as many as there are people in this world! Take heart in knowing that you will find yours. Your every day is another day that someone else sees you as a source of their own strength. Keep fighting the good fight.

    Take care,
    Adrian

  2. Alyssa Volunteer

    Hi hopeless,

    Thank you for trusting us to share your story. This is not your fault, and you aren’t playing the victim, you were a victim. I’m sorry you went through that, especially by someone who was supposed to support and protect you. It’s hard for others to understand what you went through when they haven’t gone through it themselves. If they aren’t able to stick through it with you, they may not have been the best support system in the first place. You are brave and I give you kudos, especially for speaking up and trying to move forward. I know it can be a process, but the process does help. If you want to find more references, I recommend our Find Help tab at the top of the page. That can help provide more assistance if necessary.
    I hope you continue to reach out to us.
    Sending positivity and support.
    Alyssa

  3. Lala

    Hopeless,

    You didn’t deserve all the pain you have been through none of this is your fault. The person who is supposed to protect you too advantage of you and caused you so much pain. Please dont think you have to take away your life, yes you have experience so much pain but there is also a lot of happiness in this life. Can I suggest maybe getting an ESA to help you during your healing. Emotional support Animals are a great resources and can be beneficial. Or please go to our Find Help tab if you would like more resources, please dont hesitate to contact us again. Stay safe and please check up.

  4. coachdiggs Volunteer

    I wanted to say thank you for sharing your story. Just wanted to say sorry that you had bad child hood. I am sorry that you did not have supported to help you out during your tough time. Also, I wanted to say it was not fault for what happened to you. If you need more help or advice I would say that maybe talk to a counselor. Lastly, I wanted to say thank you for sharing your story.

  5. Caitlin Volunteer

    I believe you.

    You deserved a childhood where you were protected and supported with love and care. I am sorry you didn’t experience that. You didn’t do anything wrong and I am sure it feels like a mountain to come out of. You are worthy of happiness and love and respect…and support. I am so sorry that has been so hard to find. Finding help in services in your area or on this or other sites might be possible. It can be hard to find what you might need but keep at it! You are so worthy of living outside of what you are experiencing right now.

    -Caitlin

  6. Thomas Volunteer

    Hopeless,

    I’m so sorry for what all has happened to you. You didn’t deserve any of this and none of it is your fault. I’m sorry you have had a hard time developing a support system and getting friends to stick around. It’s hard to heal alone. You deserve love and support, and to be treated with nothing short of compassion.

    Like many others have mentioned, you can find additional resources under our Find Help tab. You can text VOICE to 741-741 for immediate help to talk to a trained professional. Thank you for sharing your story with us. We believe you. Please let us know how else we can help. You are not alone!

  7. Breanna Volunteer

    Hi there hopeless,

    Thank you for trusting us with your story. I’m so sorry for what you’ve been through. You are absolutely right – you’re not playing a victim card, and I’m sorry these people invalidated your experiences. You deserve to receive support, and I hope you can find a new prescription that works well for you. And, I’m sorry that you’re struggling and feeling hopeless. Things can change. Is there anything that we can do to support you? Please check out our Find Help tab for resources that might be supportive, and don’t hesitate to come back if you’d like to share more. We are here for you. Keep your chin up.

    Sending you love and strength,
    Bre

  8. Brooke Volunteer

    hopeless, thank you for sharing with us. It is very brave to share your story. Please know what happened to you was absolutely not your fault. I’m sorry its so hard right now with trying to make friends and finding a mediation that fits. Its totally understandable you are having these feelings still after all this time. Have you tried reaching out to a therapist? They may be able to help process some of this trauma. We also have a Find Help tab that has more additional resources. We are all here to support you and listen. Sending lots of love.

  9. t3nnis_player18 Volunteer

    Hey hopeless,
    I am so sorry something so terrible happened to you by someone who was supposed to care for you. This is not your fault and you are not playing the victim, you are a victim of something truly awful and people need you have full rights to take as much time as you need to process and try to cope with all the emotions you are having. I want you to know that you are wanted on and loved and I’m sorry your struggles have left you feeling helpless and useless. There are many resources out there that can help you through this very difficult time and you can find some of them on this page under the ‘Find Help’ tab at the top of the page. I’m sorry you don’t feel like you have friends you can rely on, but we are here for you any time you need us to be. Please stay strong through this, we are rooting for you. Sending all the love I have your way.

  10. eagle206 Volunteer

    Hi Hopeless,

    It takes a lot of courage to share, thank you. I’m so sorry to hear what you had to deal with from your father. If you are feeling unwell we have some hotlines here that you could call: https://www.avoicefortheinnocent.org/help/hotlines/. None of what happened was your fault. It makes sense to feel sad. You deserve love and you will have people that stay with you. You may not be able to change your past, but I believe you can make progress in your healing. Everyone processes differently, so it’s unfair for people to tell you not to reference your past. It’s hard to find the right medicine, but there are many options.

    Stay strong,
    T

  11. Metalhead Volunteer

    Hopeless,

    Nobody should ever have to experience what your father put you through, and I feel awful knowing that you had to go through that. As for the friends that you told about your abuse, a lot of people who haven’t experienced trauma in their lives don’t really know how to handle it, but speaking with a professional about what you have been through cloud help a great amount and provide the support that the people in your life unfortunately just couldn’t do. I know that it doesn’t seem like life has much to offer at this point, but there is always light at the end of the tunnel. I think it is very brave of you that you managed to build up the courage to share your story with us, and that is truly a huge step in the right direction. Don’t be a stranger and feel free to drop by any time and give us an update. There are also very helpful resources that you might like on our “find help” tab at the top.

    Respectfully,
    Metalhead

  12. walvarenga1 Volunteer

    Thank you for entrusting your story to us. I’m truly sorry for what happened to you and the fact that you’re still dealing with the aftermath of your father’s actions. I believe you and don’t believe you’re pretending to be a victim. Nobody should ever have to go through such a thing and still be in pain. It’s understandable that you’re still dealing with the emotional turmoil, especially since you haven’t been able to find reliable friends or medication. It may take some time to find someone who acknowledges your needs and is open to listening. I’m glad you found us because we’re here to help you out! If you require additional information, I recommend that you browse through our ‘Find Help’ tab. Please take care of yourself.

    Sending support and peace your way,

    Wesley

  13. cachonoah Volunteer

    Hi hopeless,

    Thank you for sharing your story with us. Im sorry for what you’ve been through. It takes a strong person to be comfortable sharing an experience like this one but I promise you that it will get better. You deserve to be happy. You shouldn’t have to explain to anyone why you feel this way, or even what happened. Just know that your friends here are listening to you, and understanding you. Have you tried to seek any professional help? The ‘seek help’ button at the home page of this website can offer many sources. There I’m sure you can find some sort of guidance. We would all love to hear from you soon. Keep us updated! Much love from your friends here at AVFTI.

  14. Briggums117 Volunteer

    I’m proud you had the confidence to share this with us. It’s never easy to talk about what happened! I want you to know how sorry I am, but I also want to express my concern for you. I have faith in you! That wasn’t your fault! It grieves me to learn that your father was not there for you. You are deserving of living! If you haven’t already done so, check out the find help page. I hope you can meet someone with whom you can share. We’re here to listen to you, too, and believe us when we say that! Thank you again for sharing your story with us.

  15. sarahj Volunteer

    Hi hopeless,

    I am so very sorry to read what happened to you. I am sorry for what your father did, and I hope you know that it was not your fault nor did you deserve it. Thank you for being so brave and sharing your story with us. I can understand where you are coming from – sometimes our traumas spill into every aspect of our lives, and you are right… our past experiences (pleasant or unpleasant) shape who we become. However, sometimes with help we can change how our trauma affects us and the response we give. If you would like, please check out the “Find Help” tab here to access resources available to you. Alternatively, maybe consider talking with another professional or doctor? You deserve to be here and you deserve to feel happy and healthy. We are here to support you when needed.

    Take care of yourself and stay strong,
    Sarahj

  16. Marissa Day Captain

    Hi hopeless,

    Thanks for sharing your story with us. I’m so sorry your dad did that to you, and it breaks my heart to hear everything you’re going through. I promise, things will get better ❤️‍🩹 I know it’s hard to imagine a brighter side of life, but it’s out there! Besides the medication, have you tried anything else? Like speaking with a professional? They may be able to help you navigate these feelings of hopelessness and help you find ways to deal with them better than we can. Going to a therapist may seem daunting so please only do what you’re comfortable with. Let us know if there’s anything we can do to help you.

    Feel free to check out the “Find Help” tab at the top of the page! Stay strong.

    Marissa

  17. morganndelacruz Volunteer

    Much obliged to you for imparting this to us. I’m excessively sorry that you needed to encounter this, mainly on account of somebody you ought to have the option to trust. Your longing to be adored is legitimate, and you have the right to be cherished. Indeed, each of your sentiments is legitimate, and I trust you discover companions who will acknowledge you as you are soon! So, go ahead and look at any of our assets under the Find Help tab, and kindly return and offer any time! We hear you, and we support you.

    – Morgan <3

  18. brookeA Volunteer

    Hi hopeless,

    Thank you for sharing this with us. I’m so sorry that you had to experience this, especially at the hands of someone you should be able to trust. Your desire to be loved is valid, and you deserve to be loved. In fact, all of your feelings are valid, and I hope you find friends who will accept you as you are soon! I also hope you are able to find a medicine that works for you. Feel free to check out any of our resources under the Find Help tab, and please come back and share any time! We hear you, and we support you.

  19. musicislove

    Hi Hopeless,

    I’m so sorry for the trauma you’ve experienced. It’s so hard when you’re feeling the way you do, but no matter what there is always hope. Nothing that happened to you was your fault and you don’t deserve any of the pain that you’ve been through.You deserve to be loved and supported, you deserve safety. I can relate to feeling too broken and too much for others to handle, but you’re not broken and there are people that will accept you and love you for who you are. I spent so many years believing the opposite for myself, but it’s true. You’re not playing the victim by explaining why you’re struggling, you went through something horrible and you are allowed to explain why you feel the way you do. I hope you find a new medication that works for you, and in the mean time we have a ton of resources under our Find Help tab if you need more support. We are here for you and support you. Sending so much hope and strength your way.

    Delaney

  20. jcas120 Volunteer

    Hello,

    Thank you for coming here and sharing your story with us. I’m so glad you found our website. I’m so sorry to hear about what your dad did to you that sounds terrible. I hope you know that what happened to you was not your fault. I’m also sorry to hear that your friends and those around you aren’t supportive. I don’t believe you are broken at all. In fact, I read your story and I see your strength and resilience. You are right, it is facts as you put it and I hope some people come into your life who accept you for who you are. I can certainly understand why you think nobody gets it but we here understand and we are here for you. I hope you have some brighter days ahead and a new medication works for you. There are so many different kinds out there sometimes we just need to find what works for us. Also, if you ever feel like you might act on those thoughts of death please be sure to text VOICE to 741-741 to get assistance. We also have a great ‘find help’ tab at the top of the site.

    Thanks again for sharing and we are here for you and understand you and I hope things start looking up soon!

  21. ajklessig Volunteer

    Hi,

    Thank you for sharing with us. I can’t imagine what you have gone through. That is a huge weight to carry all the time even though none of that is your fault. I can assure you though that despite all the pain you are feeling, you are not useless. You deserve to be here and have a purpose of being here. Healing can take a really long time, and I know it can seem really difficult sometimes. I do hope you can find another medication that works for you. There are a ton of other resources that might be helpful for you on our Find Help tab too. Please feel free to come back and share with us again.

  22. Northlane1991 Volunteer

    Hey Friend
    I am glad you found this place to share your story. you are so brave and powerful and you didn’t deserve to be hurt like you were especially around a person who was supposed to shield you. I hope you are able to find a healing method and also find the right medication as well. Sending lots of good thoughts your way!

  23. mikaylaanne11 Volunteer

    Hey there hopeless,

    I’m glad that you found us and you had the courage to share your story. You are so powerful, and you didn’t deserve to be hurt like you were, especially by someone you should have been able to trust. Healing isn’t a linear journey, and having a support system really helps on those particularly dark days. Do you have anyone that you’re close to who would be able to take that journey with you? I also hope that you find the right medication! Mine has helped my healing journey tremendously, and I wish the same for you. Sending lots of good thoughts your way.

  24. KatherineL Volunteer

    Hey there hopeless,

    I am glad you found us and shared what you’re going through. First, I believe you and believe that you are not “playing the victim”. What your father put you through was not okay, and it’s completely understandable you’re still struggling with that trauma especially when you’re unable to find supportive long-term friends or medication that works for you. Eventually, you will find people who you trust and who want to be supportive friends. I recommend checking out our Find Help tab, but you’re always welcome to post here too. We’re here for you.

    KatherineL

  25. chompyapple1 Volunteer

    Hi hopeless,

    Thank you for sharing your story with us. I just want to say I am so sorry to hear how your dad, someone who is supposed to a protector, abused you and how pained you are to this day because of it. Not of what happened is your fault and it certainly shouldn’t have happened. You deserve a lot of love. You could also find other ways that will help you cope or heal. Maybe pickup reading or painting, those are some common ways people have used to heal and better themselves. I really hope you can get better, we all are. Stay strong.

  26. Neesha Volunteer

    Hopeless,
    It makes sense that you don’t tell people you’ve been trafficked. It is natural to want to feel loved and I am so sorry your father betrayed you. I imagine your pain is deep and all consuming for you wish to die. I am grateful you are here and have the strength to share with us your experience. You have touched my heart today, and I so hope you can work with doctors and therapist to find a way to process and move through your suffering. Please check out our resources tab and see if something there resonates with you. The healing journey is daunting and painful, and I wish you well as you work through it.

  27. alexa.zaragoza Volunteer

    Hopeless,
    First I want to say thank you for sharing your story. We are listening and we are here for you. I am very sorry that you went through that and continue to go through that. Your life is not useless, you have a purpose and you deserve all the love in the world. Never feel that you are alone. We are here for you and there are resources that can help you under the “Find Help” tab. I hope you will be able to find the solution you are looking for and we hope to hear from you again soon. Please take care.

  28. aegardiner Day Captain

    Hi hopeless,

    Thank you for reaching out to us here and sharing your story. I am so sorry for what happened to you and that it was because of your dad that you continue to be in pain today. It sounds like you are trying to find peace in life by looking for a medication first. I hope that you feel like you have a physician or therapist who can help you find the right medication for you. Sometimes it can take a little bit to find someone who understands your needs and cares enough to listen. Medications can also be tricky with their side effects so hang in there and there will be something that will work out for you – sometimes you just need dosing modifications or a slightly different drug. Your life is definitely worth living. If you haven’t looked into it yet please browse our resources tab to see if there is someone near you who can help or text text VOICE to 741-741. You are already dealing with a lot because of what happened and also not having the support of friends. Do you have any family member you can reach out to or trust right now? It is so important to find someone in your life who can provide support to you. In addition, we are always here for you when you need to reach out or if you have any questions about how to find resources. Take care!

  29. kelly Day Captain

    Hi, hopeless. I’m so sorry your dad did that to you. I understand why you feel that way, but I don’t believe your life is useless. We love and care about you without even meeting you. I’m sorry your friends didn’t stick around, but maybe it’s better to not have those people in your life if they can’t stick with you through the tough parts. Have you tried any support groups? A lot more have become accessible online. I’ve found a lot of supportive friends in my group who get what it’s like to be a survivor of sexual abuse. I have met survivors of human trafficking there also. You are not alone and there are people out there who will give you the love and support you deserve. I know it’s tough but please keep fighting. Your background of abuse shows that you are a fighter and a survivor. Thank you for trusting us with you story. Please let us know if we can do anything to help.

  30. karinakalke Volunteer

    Hi hopeless,

    Thank you for sharing your story with us. That takes a lot of courage, and it speaks to your strength. I’m so sorry you’ve experienced this trauma. Please know that none of this was your fault. I’m sorry that you’ve been feeling like this, and I’m sorry your medicine has such bad side effects. Hopefully you can find a better one.

    The healing process is different for everyone. We have some resources under the “Find Help” tab that I think could be beneficial. We believe you and we are always here for you.

    Sending love and support,
    Karina

  31. jcastle38 Volunteer

    Hi there,

    I’m so sorry you went through such horrible trauma. You didn’t deserve any of it. The fact that you are sharing your story with us shows us how incredibly strong you are to have gone through that and speak about it. Healing is different for everybody, but talking about it is a great start. You should not have to carry all of that burden on your own, you might want to check out our “Find help” tab for more resources, or text VOICE to 741-741 for more help. I’m sorry that medicine had such bad side effects on you, I am confident that you are going to find one that suits you. It just is a trial and error sometimes with medications until you finally find the right fit and are able to stick to it. Your life is incredibly important and we all want you here, and you are on this earth for a reason. I know that you deserve a much better life and I am confident that you are going to receive it. After having gone through all that you did, you are going to have a happy ending and accomplish all of your goals and aspirations, I know it. Please hang in there, continue to be strong and continue to fight for your healing. You are so worth it. I hope to hear an update from you soon, we are all rooting for you and will always be here to listen. Sending you lots of love.

  32. music2799 Day Captain

    Hi hopeless,

    You didn’t deserve what happened to you, and it wasn’t your fault. I don’t believe you’re playing the victim, and it can be so difficult when people don’t understand. Healing is nonlinear and individual. What might work for one person might not work for another person, and that’s okay. Everyone is different, and you can take as much time as you need to heal from this. I hope you can find another medication that works for you.

    I can only imagine how exhausted and overwhelmed you feel from dealing with the weight of the trauma. This may feel really difficult right now, but I’m confident that you can get through. You’re not alone, and your life is not useless. We care about you, and you are valuable. You are worthy of love and safety, and nothing can change that. You deserve the chance to live a fulfilling life. I think the Find Help tab and texting VOICE to 741-741 could be helpful. If you would like to (and you are able), you could speak to a trauma-informed professional about how you’re feeling. They could help you find ways to cope.

    Thank you for trusting us with your feelings. It can be so difficult to share our pain, and you are brave for sharing this with us. We can hold space for you when things feel overwhelming. We’re here to listen, so please write back if you need anything. I hope you’re doing okay today, and I’ll be thinking of you.

  33. Alyssa Day Captain

    Hi hopeless,
    I’m so sorry that this happened. I’m happy you haven’t given up hope on finding the right medicine. I know looking for the right medication is hard and can take years. I hope you find the right one soon. When you said people who have good backgrounds can explain that’s how they got to where they are it should be the same for people with bad backgrounds. I agree it would make sense because everything has a reason as to why it happened. You are so strong. I know saying those words are probably extremely hard to say, but you said them and it takes a lot of strength. Thank you for trusting and sharing your story with AVFTI. Continue to stay strong.
    -Alyssa

  34. lqui101 Volunteer

    Hey there,

    Thank you for sharing your story with us. You were never deserving of what happened and you still are not. You are deserving of people who understand your past and accept you. You deserve that inner peace as well. Healing is different for everyone and you should not feel pressured by anyone to get over that part of your past when you yourself are not ready for it. If you do need help finding resources we do have a ‘find help’ tab that is loaded with resources for you. As for medication, that will take time. You and only you know what will work and what will not. Make sure you stand strong and protest your wants and needs when it comes to it. You are strong and you will continue to be strong. If you need a place to rant or simply put your thoughts into writing form, we will always be here to listen. Stay safe.

  35. zelda Day Captain

    Hopeless,

    I’m so sorry you went through such horrific traumas. That type of pain is enormous, and I can only imagine how tough it was to survive.

    I hope you’ll one day find lifelong friends who empathize with your past without judging you or abandoning you. You don’t deserve such maltreatment.

    We have a Find Help tab on our website here that can direct you to resources you might find useful. The appropriate medication can be hard to find, and I can definitely relate to the struggle.

    I’m glad you posted on our site.

    At the end of the day, you are brave, and you are a warrior. Don’t ever let anyone on this earth make you feel less than or insecure.

    Your life matters.
    You matter!

    Thank you for sharing your story and your thoughts with us today. It took courage to voice your pain, and we applaud your bravery. Come back again soon if you ever need to talk. We’re here for you, and we appreciate you.

  36. Starling Volunteer

    Hi there,
    Thank you for sharing your story with us. I’m so sorry that you had to go through that. We have resources under the “Find Help” tab for you to look into to get the help you need. I really hope you are able to find a medication that works for you. You are so brave and strong just for getting to where you are now. Please know that we are here for you, and that you can come back and continue sharing anytime you feel the need to. If you ever need anything, let us know. We’re always here for you.

  37. tolleytn Volunteer

    Hi friend –

    I want to first say that you are so brave to share your story with us. I can only imagine the kind of pain you went through and continue to face to this day. Secondly – I can say without a single doubt that all of us want you here on this planet. We value you as a person and know that you will overcome this and continue to do amazing things in your lifetime. I know it must feel incredibly difficult and overwhelming right now, but I promise that life will become something beautiful to you again someday. You’re such a fighter and we all believe in you.

    If you ever need someone to talk to, or just want to shoot us a quick update, feel free to post on this site as much as you want. We also have some extra resources in the “find help” tab that are super useful. We love and care for you very much. Take care of yourself and stay strong <3

    – Tiff

  38. vanessadmoreno Volunteer

    Hi there,

    Thank you for sharing your story. I want to tell you that you are worthy, loved, and supported. I am so sorry for what you have been through, but I can surely say that you are very brave and will heal from this trauma. It does get better. Healing is not linear though, and I want you to understand that. Some days might be better than others. But you were put on to this Earth for a reason, and I really do hope you persevere through. Have you tried seeking professional help like therapy sessions for your experience and how you have been coping? AVFTI has a tab called “Find Help” that has very useful resources. As far as medication, I really hope you find some that don’t give you bad side effects! It’s always difficult trying them out because you never know how your body will react to them, however, I am confident that you will eventually find the right one for you. Sending you a lot of love and good vibes your way.

    -Vanessa

  39. Erin O'Callaghan Day Captain

    I am so sorry for what happened. You didn’t deserve anything that happened, and it’s not your fault. You deserve support. Please text VOICE to 741 741 for more immediate help. You are not alone.

    Erin

  40. hdezcinday07 Volunteer

    Hi hopeless,
    First of all thank you so much for sharing your story I know this isnt easy. Second, I would like you to go to our “Help Tab” it has alot of resources there. Seek the help that you need and dont think that you are alone because you are not. Third, you are a strong, and brave woman for sharing with us what happened to you so that is a great step. You had the courage that alot of people don’t have to open up and tell us how they feel. Nobody should have to go through what you did speically coming from your father but like a said stay positive you have us to talk to any day or time feel free to come back. We are your friends here so don’t feel alone. Don’t hesitate to reach out to us when you feel depressed. Wishing you the best.
    -Cindy

  41. noobloop Volunteer

    Hi hopeless, thank you for sharing your experience and your feelings. Right off the bat I want to ask you to text “VOICE” to 741-741; I want you to receive the help that you need. You are not alone, there are plenty of people who feel the same way you are feeling. It’s normal to have people not understand your situation, and because they do not understand it and don’t know how to help they may distance themselves from you. Although it may not be the right thing to do, it happens. That doesn’t mean you deserve that treatment. You have people here willing to listen to you, and maybe even give you tips to cope. I strongly suggest you reach out to AVFTI, not only could they provide you with tips but maybe even give you a couple of resources. I know you can make it through, the road to healing emotionally and mentally can a long and rough one but I am not in the least doubtful that’ll you’ll make it through. This is me giving you a little push. I hope you update us on how you’re doing.
    Wishing you well,
    noobloop

  42. mirage276 Volunteer

    Hello,
    Thank you for sharing your story, it must’ve taken a lot to come forward. I’d like to just say that you do not deserve anything that your dad did to you in the slightest. You do deserve to be loved and supported though, you are deserving of love and I want you to know that everyone at AVFTI is here to offer our support. You are never alone and you deserve to live a prosperous life. I know it’ll take time but be patient with your healing process and be kind to yourself through it all. I am so proud of how brave you have been so far, keep your head up high I believe in you!
    Best,
    M

  43. Erika23 Volunteer

    Hello there,
    I can’t begin to understand how you feel, but I’m glad you came on here to tell us everything that you’re going through. I just want to tell you that you absolutely matter and it’s normal to feel the way that you do after everything that’s happened. I can understand feeling alone and frustrated at the fact that you are not being heard and instead feel like a burden, but you are none of those things. It could be a good idea to find a good support program that can help you talk to people that are going through exactly the same as you. The healing process won’t be easy, but I know you can do it. We are all here for you and if you need to vent or update us on anything feel free. Just know that you are not alone and all of us here really do care about how you’re doing.

  44. dzreid Volunteer

    Hi Hopeless!
    I am so glad you found the courage to share! Talking about what happened is never easy! I want you to know how sorry I am, but also to say, I care about you. I believe in you! You didn’t deserve that! It breaks my heart to hear your dad wasn’t there for you. It makes me angry that he “trafficked” you! You are worth it to live! As others have said, if you haven’t already checked it out, our “find help” page is packed full of resources. I hope you can find someone to share with. We are here for you as well to listen, & believe you! Have you considered talking to a professional? I know it’s tough, but take things day by day, take a deep breath, & say to yourself, yes, this is hard, but you are a survivor & way stronger than you may feel or believe! Putting a name on what happened takes time, as does healing. You will overcome & be able to turn your pains into victories. It begins with small steps. You can do this!
    Dawn

  45. barbaralizet

    Hi, it must have been really rough for you to share your story but I want you to know that we appreciate you sharing your story with us. I want you to know that what happened to you was never your fault. You are strong and very valuable and very loved. I believe in you and I know that you are very strong, feel free to talk us whenever it is needed. Your healing process may not be easy but I believe in you. Our “Find Help” tab has a lot of great resources that can be beneficial to you. Please stay strong and I wish you the best towards you healing journey.

  46. rvmoss Volunteer

    Hi,

    I appreciate you sharing your story with us because I know it’s not easy and it takes a lot of strength. Anything you went through is not your fault and I hope you know that you are special and loved by many others although you might not see it. I want you to know that you are valuable and have us always and are able to come talk to us whenever is needed and update us. I hope you find useful our “find help” button so you can get better assistance and be on your way towards your healing journey. I know it’s not easy but we all believe in you. Please stay strong, sending lots of healing your way and if needed text VOICE to 741741.

    With lots of love,
    LR

  47. Dash35

    Hi,

    Thank you for sharing your story and I am sorry that you have had to experience this. No one deserves to go through something like this and none of what happened to you is your fault. Everyone here at AVFTI is here for you and will be here to listen and support you in any way that we can. We believe you and want you to know that you are loved and you have a life worth living. Healing takes a long time so it is okay if you are not healed yet, but we know you can do it and we will be with you every step of the way. Our “Find Help” tab has a lot of great resources and if you ever feel like you need to talk to someone, we are here for you.

    Best,
    Dash35

  48. kr1510 Volunteer

    Hi Hopeless,
    Thank you so much for sharing. It takes a lot of strength to share your story. Finding friends that understand that you have trauma may be difficult because not everyone is trauma-informed. I strongly encourage you to use our “Find Help” tab to find resources in your area that could help on your healing journey, whether it be a counselor/therapist for individual therapy or even group therapy so that you can interact with others that may have a similar experience as you.
    If you are ever in crisis please do not hesitate to text VOICE to 741741.
    Much love,
    KR1510

  49. Javi7295

    Hi,

    Thank you for sharing what you have been through. It is a tough thing to come to the realization and or come to terms with the trauma that you have experienced. Your father was absolutely in the wrong for doing what he did to you when he should have been the one trying to protect you the most. People can also be not very understanding of situations they haven’t experienced themselves and I am certain that you will meet new friends who will come to understand you and accept you for who you are. Healing takes time and just know that we hear you and will do whatever we can to support you whenever you need help. You are valued and I hope you can take the time to look at our Find Help section. There you can find numerous resources that can be of use to you. We appreciate you and please come back anytime you feel like it. Stay Strong.
    – Javi

  50. candyappleb Day Captain

    Hi hopeless,

    I am so sorry that you had to experience that abuse from your father. You didn’t deserve what happened to you, and it wasn’t your fault. You are important and loved and so very valuable. We are here for you. Feel free to share with us as much as you like. We believe you, we hear you and we’ll do everything we can to support you. I also recommend browsing through our resource section. We have a fairly extensive list of organizations that may be local and can help as well. Also, if you are ever in crisis please reach out to the crisis text line by texting VOICE to 741741 and you will be connected with someone right away. We love you, hopeless. Hang in there.

    All the best,
    Becca