i had shared my story on here about two or three years ago under a different user, but i couldn’t seem to remember my user or password so i made a new account. but an update from when i shared my story; i have a loving and caring boyfriend now. but he recently told me he had “boxed” my r*pist before their soccer game (they’re on the same soccer team for my high school), i honestly thought he was lying when he told me. i asked him why he did it and he said “everyone knows we don’t like each other because of what he did. they wanted us to fight, so i gave them one and i won.” i denied it and said “okay” and carried on, things were okay for a while until earlier today, a friend of mine that was there when it happened (bless his heart, he wasn’t aware of my story and my r*pist) had showed me the video of them FIGHTING and i rewatched it three times because i wasn’t registering what was happening and i just got a REALLY bad feeling. i don’t know why, i told my boyfriend not to get involved because i didn’t want him to carry this on him. i don’t know what to do, i feel so ill and anxious. can someone please help me?