How to move forward

My brother sexually abused me when I was younger through inappropriate touching. I can’t remember all of the details, but I remember it happening at least several times when I was around the age of 6. He is 6 years older than me, making him around 12 at the time. I never told anyone at the time it was happening and didn’t even register that something had happened to me until I was in high school. After reading a book in which a girl was abused, memories came flooding back to me. I then later remembered that I had gone to the doctor for a UTI in first grade, which helped me place the time frame of when things happened. I feel confident that the UTI was caused by the abuse. Looking back, there are other inappropriate things he has done. When he was in high school, I accidentally caught him looking at porn on the shared computer and instead of being ashamed or uncomfortable, he wanted to show it to me. Another time, I had a friend over and we… Read more  »

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“Oh it’s fine, we’re both girls”

When I was in graduate school, my thesis advisor (who was 44, and I was 22) used to walk around in her bra and underwear, and then insist that I shower with her. If I chose a different shower in the gym, she would come and join me in the shower. When I started losing… Read more

Yes, In A Church (Update #13)

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I didn’t graduate highschool

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I came back from seeing Karen today and practically bit my mother’s head off.  I came in the door and she said, It’s Brian’s and Rush’s birthday.  I did not say anything, and she was walking behind me and I thought she asked me if I e-mailed him.  I asked rather vehemently, “Why would I… Read more

I was only 14

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It was so long ago, episode 43.

I saw Karen today.  It seems like these weeks are going by so fast, and yet it feels like forever since I was last in there.  Today was no different.  This week had New Year’s Eve and New Year’s Day in it.  So she asked which days we had group.  I told her Monday and… Read more

Here’s my story

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