Trapped

Posted by music2799.

Hi everyone. I'm at this interesting point in my life. I turn 20 next month, and I want to be more independent. One of my goals is to live on my own. I didn't think about being independent in high school - partially because I didn't realize my parents were invalidating me until my first semester of college. I'll admit it's frustrating because I want to live on my own, but I don't know if I have enough life skills or even enough money to do it. I have a plan to move out, and I'm trying to be positive. Yet it's so difficult. One of the reasons why I want to live on my own is so I can do what I want without caring as much about what other people think. Caring too much about what others think has been a major obstacle throughout my life. I think my parents trained me to do this, and I'm trying so hard to kick it to the curb. It's prominent in my culture, and if anyone wants to do something outside the subjective 'norm,' we're… Read more  »

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