Spanking is Sexual Abuse

I’m having a tough time tonight and I thought I’d finally share my story.It starts when I’m young.  So young I can’t remember.  4, 5, 6 years old?  All I remember was that I was in trouble.  I was in trouble a lot.  But this time was different and it was going to become the start of my personal hell.My parents sent me to my room.  I fumed in there while I waited.  Eventually my father came in looking serious.“Your mother and I have decided it’s time you got stronger punishments than just time out.”  He said.I didn’t know what he meant.“Take off your pants.”  He said.I was surprised and scared.  I told him no.“Take off your pants now!”I did what he wanted.  What else was I supposed to do.  I stood there like an idiot in my shirt and panties, not knowing what was happening.Dad pointed at my panties.“Panties off too.”Reluctantly I pulled my panties down too.  I don’t remember being naked in front of him before.After that he made me crawl onto my bed and he spanked me. … Read more  »

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not really an episode. Just an update, kind of.

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