It was so long ago, 39/40 or so…

Posted by Solongago.

Karen told me to write,Cathy told me to write, Denise told me to write, So I wrote this and shared it in group on Tuesday and with Denise on Wednesday, I'll see Karen on Saturday.  Thinking too much yesterday in group, then at work.  I thought about what one of the gals said about hiding in the closet -- at least I never had to hide in the closet.  But I'd hide under the bed.  Sometimes I'd fall asleep under the bed and when I would wake up hours later no one knew or cared where I was. Dialectical.  Yeah I can be so angry with Mom, I think she was the cause of every thing, that she set me up (not deliberately) but evenso.  She was hard.  She had little time, too many kids, no help and raging depression.  Her rage would come out, and she would call us horrible things and let fly with her hands -- never fists, but she would pull your hair, slap your face, slap you anywhere.  Her idea of discipline was creative.  "Bring me the extension… Read more  »

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