Four years ago

It’s been four years since I was sexually assaulted and I’m just now starting to deal with it. The last four years of my life have been plagued with self-harming behaviors, an eating disorder, and hospitalizations due to suicide attempts. I blame him for most of it. He wouldn’t let go of me. He held me so tightly against the side of his jeep. My best friend at the time stood there looking on laughing at the scene as my perpetrator’s hands moved over my body refusing to stop no matter how many times I begged him to please, please stop. I can still taste his tongue in my mouth. I can still smell his cologne. I can still feel his fingers over my skin. I have been participating in EMDR therapy recently and have found it to be my saving grace. Nothing has worked for me quite like this. My panic attacks and nightmares have stopped almost 100% since completing treatment. It’s been life saving for me. I’m so proud of myself for stepping out of my comfort zone and trying something I was so scared to try. I just want to encourage others to explore treatment options you maybe hadn’t considered before. I combined EMDR with animal and art therapy as well as medication management with my doctor and it finally seemed to be the magical combination that has allowed me to function on a daily basis. I want to let everyone know there is hope. There is a treatment combination that will work for you. You may try 100 different treatment types before finding something that works but something will work and will bring you the relief that you deserve.

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